Pink Pigs and Spotted Cows

Inconsiderate parents

2012-02-03T02:18:00.001-08:00

There is ONE thing that I have very low tolerance to is...Inconsiderate people!

Sometimes it is very saddening and sickening to see how selfish people have become nowadays. I am not sure it is attributed to bringing up or more to people being too full of themselves. Whatever the reason it may be...these adults are just teaching their kids to be 'selfish' just like them.

Almost everyday we would encounter 'inconsiderate' people. It can be drivers on the road...kiasu drivers who just don't give way eventhough they see you signalling and somewhat speed up...it can be people in the bank or shopping mall who just don't know how to queue like other people do...or it can be 'customers' who just barge in to get service eventhough the service provider is engaged with someone else.

Today, an inconsiderate parent...a lady...who have not left a very good impression with me already last time...it was raining and we parents can go in to the school compound to fetch our kids. There are only 2 sections that parents can park their car. This lady...just couldn't be bothered to park her car properly and just occupied the whole section. One section can fit 2 cars. Luckily there was another space for me to park. Is it too hard to think of other parents and maybe they would need to fetch their kids too and that they wouldn't have a parking place??? Sigh.

Another case of inconsiderate parents. Would you ever send your child to a party if he was in the middle of having chicken pox??? Definitely NOT , right??? Well, unfortunately there are parents who don't care and give a damn and did exactly that. Ryan attended a party not too long ago...and the parents allowed their child who had CP to attend the party.

Sigh.

Sometimes I wish...

2012-01-13T01:22:00.000-08:00

...I was more ambitious. More career-minded. It seems that I am more a 'family first' type of person than chasing my own dreams. I know its by choice that I don't want to work full time. But that is the thing. If I was more ambitious type of person, I would not be making that choice.

...I had a clear talent or skill. Since young, I was the one that could remember things well. Good memory. That was all. But was never sporty or excelled in a certain sport or skill. Often I do feel inspired by individuals who could sew or draw or had a particular skill. I know, its all about cultivating a skill. Not everyone is born with skills.Even my piano...I never completed till Grade 8. Its like everything was done half cook!!! :p

...I was more adventurous. Deep down in my heart, I have the yearning to TRY and DO so many things. That is it. Just thoughts. But most of the time, I won't execute those thoughts. Call me chicken. Call me someone who thinks too much. Or just call me plain ol' L.A.Z.Y!

...my mum was still alive and around in my life. Eventhough our relationship was quite a roller coaster ride, I would say we had a very open type of mother daughter relationship. And it would have been really cool and great if she was part of my life now as I began my journey as a mother myself 5 years ago. Pity she had to exit this earth life so hastily.

...I was more a dedicated mother to my 2 kids. I have alot of plans. Plans to do stuff with them. Plans to take them here and there. Everyday I wake up feeling guilty to have to make the television as a form of a babysitter for them while I do the daily house chores. Not that I do those chores everyday too. Ask hubby. The toilet is always in a constant state of 'you know what!' I don't know where the time in a day goes. Before you know it, its the end of the day and I still haven't done anything constructive with the kids...besides yelling at them, training Ally to pee in the jamban or getting Ryan to stop playing the Ipad.

...I had more money. Not in a greedy way. In a way that I can provide more for the kids. Give them a better education. Not having to think twice and thrice on what courses/classes I can afford to put them in because of the sky rocketing fees. Having them to eat better food. Not only 'chap fun' and tai chow fare but nice restaurants that I often see in other family blogs. Getting more toys and play things for them. It takes me a long time to think getting Ally a certain toy is worth that amount of money. Only when it comes to special occasions...then I let loose.

...I had a religion. An active believe. Been out of 'christianity' since leaving form 5...so in a way, I don't have a religion. I always tell people I am an 'inactive' Christian. Still a believer. But just not going to any church. I would like to raise my kids with some Christian values...but then again, there is so many things that makes in quite impossible.

...I could be close to my mother in law. Due to our language barrier...( my minimal Cantonese and zero mandarin capabilities)...its just a hi and bye kind of communication most of the time when I see her. Expressing myself more than "I am full...have you eaten?" or "How are you?" would be deemed quite hard.I really hope that I could strike a closer relationship with her for the sake of hubby and the kids.

...I could be a better cook and baker. Honestly, I don't think I can cook. Bearable kind of food. But most of the time, I realise I have to follow the recipe closely ....then only it turns out ok. I have tried MANY times baking cookies...most of the time, it doesn't turn out nice.

A new year

2011-12-31T08:29:00.000-08:00

...Now what?

The clock just striked 12 midnight 30 mins ago...

Am I suppose to turn into a pumpkin now? Or is the morning going to be any sweeter than any other mornings???

I guess with all the anticipation and excitement towards a new year....and once it unfolds, it makes you think whether is it actually just an ordinary day...just like any other day throughout the year OR its a day where we start afresh...a clean slate with new aspirations and goals?

As for me, I always look forward to a new year as a form of a reminder to me .... that things would always get better as we enter a new year. Leave whatever negative things behind and look towards better and brighter things in the future.

Do I sound like I am talking rubbish? Probably.My brain is half asleep. Everyone is asleep upstairs already. And hubby has to wake up at 5am for a marathon.

Ok Ok...let's get down to business. I normally don't have any new year resolutions. I would just say I have goals.And of course, I want to see a better ME this year.

1. Told myself I have to reignite my reading habits. And it is just not limited to cookery books!!! In 2011, I didn't read a single novel...and its pretty bad. Would definitely check out BookExcess soon...and stocking up on some feel good novels!

2. Start my project for the kids scrapbooking.I have abandoned it like years ago.And need to start developing all the family photos.

3. Live more healthily. Gotta gotta gotta find time to exercise. I read about this Jazzexercise program...sounds fun.

4.I must learn to try NEW things. Maybe start with breaking from the habit of always buying the same food stuff each time I go grocery shopping. Maybe try a different brand of biscuits, try a new recipe, eating at a different restaurant that I have never eaten before...

5. Enjoy the kids more.Give the kids more of a childhood. Laugh. Play. Fun.

6. Intend to attempt to teach Ryan piano. Not sure that would be possible. Probably would give up teaching him after one lesson!

2012...Year of the Dragon! I am a dragon baby. Let's make this a 'special' year!!!

The Chosen One

2011-11-27T00:46:00.001-08:00

Of all the hundreds of cars in Empire Shopping Gallery car park yesterday night...

...this spiny hungry kitten chose MY car to go and hide. And some more, he/she managed to find its way to under the bonnet while I was shopping away. How it managed to do that...I have no idea!

When I got to my car to leave the car park, I heard meowing sounds. Very loud. Just thought that might be a stray kitten hiding somewhere. As I drove up the ramp, the sound was still there! S***! How could that be????

Stopped the car...looked under my tyres. Silly of me not to open my bonnet at that time. When I knocked the hub caps of the tyres...the meowing stopped. So I thought...Good! The cat ran away!

I drove off and left the building...and damn! The meowing started again! The silly kitten couldn't possibly under my bonnet right????

I stopped again outside Carrefour in the dark...(that was about 9:30pm already!)...and opened my bonnet...and lo and behold...two beady eyes looked back at me at the side of the engine. I was like...OMG! How did you get in there..silly kitten?? And why my car??? I tried to take it out...but as I reached to grab it,the kitten went and hid further into the engine. S*** again! I panicked! How am I gonna get it out? If i drive on...the heat of the engine would definitely kill the kitten and I would be having a dead kitten in my engine?????!!!! That would be a NIGHTMARE!

Called hubby who was at home with the kids....and he suggested to go to the nearest petrol station to ask for help. Perhaps flush it out or something. So I went to Shell ...got the help of the attendants there. They were rather helpful and tried to get it out...but there was nothing much they could do. The kitten probably had fallen to the side of the engine...and hopefully it wasn't stuck! I was rather panicking at that stage already. It was late. I had to go home. I am not gonna go home with a dead cat in my engine! While I was attempting to call the Honda 24Hour hotline....to ask for help....the kitten managed to get out of the entwined jungle of the engine...and stuck its head out. The attendant quickly grabbed its neck and took it out!!! You don't know how relieved I was...to see the kitten and safely removed from my engine! I was already having all visions in my head of the kitten decomposing in my engine...and maggots multiplying and the foul stench as I drove my car!!!! And getting to the workshop to open up the car frame just to get the kitten out!

Anyway...thank God that did not happen!

So Kitten...why my car???

Empire Shopping Gallery Explosion

2011-10-02T01:18:00.000-07:00

Oh shucks! Where would I get a good selection of reasonably priced and fresh groceries now?

I would go to Jaya Grocer almost weekly. I liked their selection of vegetables and some of the food stuff were slightly cheaper than the hypermarkets.And for imported stuff...also quite reasonably priced.

According to the news, the shops would be closed to business until the source of the leak is finalised and the premise would be safe to be reopened.

I love going to the Toys R Us there too. And was even planning to bring Ally to the play gym soon. I know, I did complain once about the lifts there. But now, I don't take them anymore.

Hhhmmm...so have to look in other directions now temporarily. I guess have to settle for Carrefour for the moment.

Worrywart

2011-07-04T23:31:00.000-07:00

I am definitely a worrywart.

I worry about everything lately. Actually I don't remember being like this a couple of years ago.

I wished I could control my thoughts and worries.

Worry worry worry...not good. May lead to hypertension next time.

Maybe reaching the mid thirties makes people more neurotic and sensitive.

I worry about how to be a better parent.

I worry about how to control my 2 year old tantrums.

I worry about my eye bags.

I worry about my job.

I worry about the safety of the food we consume.

I worry about my retirement finances

I worry that I am not being a good example to my kids.

I worry about my dad.

I worry about the health of my loved ones and myself.

I worry that I do not exercise.

I worry about how to be less insecure.

I worry that life is so unexpected and that I should live happy every day.

...and the list goes on...

And I MUST stop to be a people pleaser. Come on...I am an Adult! I must learn to say NO! And stand up to my opinions! But then again, I am afraid of getting people crossed. People like me just get easily bullied!!! I remember watching an Oprah episode many yonks ago and she was talking about people like me...and how she was like that last time! And how she just learnt to let go and say NO to people. Well, if I one of the most powerful and richest woman in the world ...who would dare to say anything to the big O, right?

Wide eyed

2011-07-02T14:28:00.001-07:00

It is 5am now.

Went to the toilet...and now I can't go back to sleep.

Tossing and rolling on the bed.

Might as well write my blog.

Can't normally write a post when the little ones are awake.

But my brain still a bit sleepy.

Today will be a long day.

Failed cupcake

2011-06-21T00:25:00.000-07:00

Oh...i just made cupcakes and it is a failure!!! It is still cooling on the rack...but when I take a whiff of it...it smells too strong of the vanilla essence!

Gee...cupcakes also I can fail! This is BAD!

Actually, trying out a cupcake recipe for Ally's birthday elmo cupcakes...but looking at this, I think I may just call off the whole idea! Easier and less stress to get a cake from the bakery.

My to-do list

2011-06-09T09:55:00.000-07:00

As @ 10/6/2011,
I have a couple of things to accomplish...

1. Thinking of starting on a pilates class

2. Ipad2 please!

3. Itching to get a waffle maker. Waffles for breakfast and tea. Sounds nice?

4. Elmo cupcakes for Ally's birthday next month. I don't even know how to use a piping bag. Dream on , Leona!

5. Getting some new baking utensils

American Idol Season 10...is over!

2011-05-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

Kind of hated the finals. Not that I didn't like the finalists...it was just such a teenage showdown that they should have changed it to Teenage Idol! But now that it is over, kind of miss it. Well, after 5 months following this every year, it tends to be an anti-climax after the finals.

Am I happy with the winner Scotty?

Well what is there to say about a goodie All American boy with strong Christian values and loves his family to bits? I guess he represents what America wants to represent to the world.

Anyway I wish him all the best in his singing career. County genre isn't my cup of tea but if Carrie Underwood can sell millions after winning this title, I am sure Scotty can!

Crumpets and tea, anyone?

2011-04-28T22:04:00.000-07:00

At approximately 5pm local time today...the whole world would be watching.

Whether we are fans of the royal family or not, somehow I guess we have all been roped into the media hype on the royal wedding today.

I switched on the radio this morning...the deejays were talking about weddings. I was watching ntv7 Breakfast show and the highlight was just on William and Kate. Yawn!

But still, I will still be clicking my remote to 712 E! Channel to see the wedding of the century. How not to miss it right? It is history. And we were part of it. Witnessing it I mean. I guess I will be looking forward more to see any celebrities who would be attending the historical event. And maybe a royalty here and there. And oh oh..the hats!

What I would love though is to get a hold on some memorabilia with the two love birds on it. Was thinking of asking my cousin in England to get maybe just a keychain or tissue holder or something. But then again, if the marriage turns sour ten years from now...what would I do with it??? Sell it on eBay? I just hope that Prince William would be the total opposite of his dad.

So, better toast my crumpets early...(I really miss those!) and get a cuppa of Tetley's tea ready and say...Long live the royal couple!

Those good ol' days

2011-03-21T19:07:00.000-07:00

What painted your childhood when you were growing up???

Growing up in the 80s...there were lots of interesting memories when I actually sit down and think about it.

Let's see...

A-ha
My first pop group that I loved after listening to their hit song 'Take on me'. Got my first cassette of their album. Their lead singer Morten Harket was quite a hunk too.

Punky Brewster
My grandfather would tape for me the series every week and I would watch it after I came back from school. We kept those episodes and I would watch over and over again. Which kid wouldn't be attracted to the colorful wardrobe that Soleil Moon Frye wore on that show?

Jelly Bears from Metrojaya
Every year during Christmas time, Metrojaya would produce these bears that they would sell during Christmas time. I really loved them and I had one for Christmas when I was a little girl. I also loved the decorations that Metrojaya did during the yuletide season. Made it really christmassy and all.

Stickers magazine
My mum used to buy this magazine called Stickers magazine which was a US publication. We used to collect a few of them and me and my sister would go crazy just looking at all the stickers published in there. From Lisa Frank to Mello Smello and BJ stickers. There were lots of brands of stickers that were never sold here. I was so crazy over those magazines that I created my own stickers magazine of my own from an empty exercise book.

Los Angeles Summer Olympics 1984
I used to follow this Olympics with my grandfather. My sister and I would go ga-ga over the gymnastics and that was where I knew about Mary Lou Retton. We would pretend to be the gymnasts and prance around the carpet doing the floor exercises.

He Man and the Masters of the Universe
There were so many cartoons that I watched in the evening in those days. There wasn't any Astro...so I remember every evening on TV3 there was a cartoon on. I think it was 5pm or 5.30pm. Besides He Man, there was Dungeons and Dragons which was absolutely my favorite. I also loved Jem, Rainbow Brite and Transformers too. They don't make cartoons like they used to now.

Kimisawa and Yaohan
Those were the department stores long before Jusco took over our shores. I would follow my parents on weekends to these places and it was such a treat.

Mannequin- The movie (1987)
This was the movie that made me love Hollywood and its actors. I would watch this show over and over again. Countless times. Andrew McCarthy was a dream and Kim Catrall was really pretty there too.

Nintendo Game and Watch
I just recalled how I LOVED these when I was a kid. But I think me and my sisters just had one or two. The rest that we played with belonged to other children. Manhole and Chef were my favorite. I just googled these predecessors of Game Boy and really jogged me down memory lane when seeing the whole collection. Among them were Mickey Mouse, Octopus, Donkey Kong and Parachute.

Sitcoms
Honestly, I don't think they make sitcoms like they used to anymore. Sitcoms are situational comedies which normally follow the lives of a family or a group of people. I was a true sitcom 'nut'. Followed almost all that was showing at that time. It's funny that even now its 20 years down the road and I can still remember the names of the characters in those sitcoms. Among my favs were Three's Company, Who's the Boss, Facts of Life, The Cosby show, Growing Pains, Family Ties...and the list goes on. Sometimes I think I picked up a lot of words from watching all these shows since I totally not a fan of reading books.

The cast of Family Ties (1982-1989)

My thoughts...

2011-02-22T08:37:00.000-08:00

12.38am.

Long time no update here.

Can see my mind is fully occupied with the kids. Juggling them, the daily routine, the house chores, meeting their needs and hubby and going to work twice a week.

Been trying to update their blog every other day if possible. If there is something to write about.

The kids health hasn't been too 'pink' since the start of the year. Prolonged cough...occasional fever...sore throat...sore eye. Hubby too. The year has just started. So I am being optimistic. Lots more to plan and look forward to.

Right now...my worries just points to Ally's speech development. At almost 20 months old...still no sign of talking or speaking singular words. She may understand the words..but her oral speech is totally nil. She doesn't even say 'Mummy'. Hubs and I are concerned at this point. Not even other simple words from her...for e.g dog, cat, star, car, open, milk. Everyday I am trying to find new ways to make her speak. Even summoning Ryan's help since she absolutely adores her brother and follows what ever he does. Came across this website too about speech therapy in children. But no time to go through it yet. Will read later.

Still no time for couple outing...as planned in my new year resolution. Seems that hubs needs to take his leave for something important so far...so couple day has to be put on hold.

American Idol Season 10 is interesting and not interesting at the same time. Up to now...it is getting rather disappointing. But let's see how it goes on. Still will watch. For entertainment.

My close and old friend who came back to Malaysia for CNY.

Her daughter E is as cute as a button!

My 2 darlings

Rantings

2011-01-23T20:05:00.000-08:00

...My heart is heavy.

Another lazy day

2011-01-18T22:57:00.000-08:00

Was suppose to update my blog.

Little girl sleeping in my room.

Quietness at last.

Won't be for long.

Got side tracked by looking at other food blogs.

So many out there. Tempting. Nice photos. Interesting recipes. But do they all turn out well?

Hungry.

Nothing to eat as I have a sore throat now.

Everyone at home is sick. Hubs has cold and throat infection. the 2 kids have noses running like a tap. The boy is better now.

Rummage the fridge now to see what to eat.

Bye.

How was my 2010?

2010-12-31T08:26:00.000-08:00

Normally every year, on New Year Eve...I would write a summary of my year and save it on Microsoft Word. And won't probably read it until the next year 31st.
But this time, I would post it here. Just some reminders of last year.

Franky, I think my life revolves to much around the kids. Difficult not too...as I am with them almost ALL the time. Sometimes I wish I had a maid or in laws nearby where they look after the kids once in a while while hubby and I have some couple time. THAT is luxury that I have not had so far. I guess its only up to us to work around that right?

So what were the peaks and troughs of my year?

Allyson's first birthday. Memorable. Fun. Special. She looked so cute in her pink polka dot dress.
Ryan going through a phase where he didn't want to go to school because of a particular teacher who scolded him. It was hard dealing with a crying child every morning. Thank God after 2-3 months it got better.
Going to Singapore for a weekend holiday and losing our brand new Sony digital camera in the toilet! Heartache!!!
American Idol is getting worse and worse! Would I still watch it? You betcha!
Had a burnout of sushi. Been eating at Sakae Sushi a tad too often throughout the year. NO more for the time being!
Allyson admitted to hospital in June for 3 days. Doc was worried it was H1N1. Did a test and thankfully it was negative. Confirmed as influenza like illness.
Nasty account with neighbour who abused their maid terribly. Even was going to report to police and embassy. Don't know what has happened to the maid after she was sent to hospital.
Seeing my boy and girl develop into really interesting characters. Ryan has an avid interest in classical music now and loves facts especially about the world. Allyson...what can I say? She is one fearless little girl!
The little girl walk at 1 year 3 months...joy to the world!
Joining my in laws to Langkawi for a family holiday in November. Was excited for the kids. First time for them on plane, boat and cable car.
My new nephew ( sis 3rd child) arrived on 1st Dec 2010. Handsome little chap.
I love blogging!!!

2011... a new year. New challenges. New adventures. New obstacles. New memories.

I love my family!

Thank God I found the answer!

2010-12-07T19:38:00.000-08:00

Okay...this is gonna be a rather 'gross' post. If you just had a meal...or having any GI upsets ... look away. This post is going to contain content of unpleasant nature!!! haha!

Yesterday, when I past motion... I was shocked to find oil in my stools. There was a layer of oil floating in the 'jamban' and it was orange in colour. I didn't give much thought about it. Just said to myself..."Strange!"

Today...again there was yellow/ orangey liquid when I did my movement. Quite a lot of it. Could it be something that I am consuming that is preventing the absorption of fats from my diet? Hence, it being eliminated in my stools. I only know of this effect if someone is consuming Orlistat (Xenical).

I was shocked that a few hours later... I found more oily excretions. THAT got me worried. Started to feel a bit weak inside. Okay..better google it quick!

So finally, I have time to sit down at the computer...and search around...and AHA...I found the culprit of my oily stools!!!

Apparently, consuming some oil-rich food in your diet may cause this...e.g certain fish or cashew nuts. So...BINGO...when Ryan was admitted to Sunway Hospital 2 days ago, the hospital serves 'butterfish' also known as escolar fish or snake mackerel in their menu. I had consumed a lot of it as they give a hefty portion of it each time. So ...this fish especially can cause people to pass orange like oily droplets in the stools as this fish has very high oil content because it cannot metabolise the wax esters in its diet.

I am so relieved now! I feel like Sherlock Holmes solving a mystery...

(** It pays to be nosey sometimes. I remember one year ago...I asked the canteen staff at the hospital what fish were they using in their menu, and she replied " Butterfish". At that time, I thought...never heard of such fish. Don't know whether she really knows what she is saying. But...now i know!!! :p )

Happy Birthday, Mama!

2010-12-04T04:41:00.000-08:00

It is my mum's birthday today.

Although she is not here on earth anymore, I would like to remember her if she was still here.

My mum always enjoyed birthdays...whether it was hers, my dad's or her children. She would be the one to plan and it was always a significant day. I guess that is why I always regarded birthdays as special occasions.

As I remember my mum...
...her uniqueness as a mother. Not the typical mum but we really did have alot in common. She was more like a friend. Perhaps we were too close that we didn't really agree in a lot of things sometimes.
...her love for fine things. From perfume, fine china, food, dining to fashion. I have learnt so much from her and most of my interests today is influenced by my mum.
...she was a young kid at heart. She still enjoyed cute things like Barbie, Hello Kitty and anything pink.
...a good cook who would slave in the kitchen to prepare interesting meals for us. My taste for food is also highly influenced by what she cooked and where we ate together.
...I was her pet. Being the youngest...I would follow her everywhere when I was a young girl up to a teenager.
...she was a pretty adventurous individual who would try anything she fancied.
...an avid scrabble player who would participate in national scrabble competitions.
...a piano teacher and she also taught music at schools her entire working career.
...a very independant woman who didn't really need people all the time. Did most things herself.

Mama, I miss you so much and always wonder how life would be now if you were still around. I miss having you in my life. And how much you would enjoy the kids...now that you have 8 grandchildren!!! The family has certainly grown...

My mum's last birthday celebration at Lemon Garden, Shangri-La

Our last Christmas together (2005)
My mum loved loved loved Christmas...see how she decorated the tree!

My first ever Haagan- Dazs

2010-11-30T07:34:00.000-08:00

I have been waiting for this day...to lick my first taste of Haagan-Dazs ice cream!

My company's annual event was held at TenJi Japanese Buffet Restaurant this year. And yeah...they have free flow of the premium ice-cream.

I have waited 34 years of my life to eat this. Simply because I won't spend RM10 over for a scoop of ice-cream. That would be real extravagance. Anyway, I loved it...although it was rather sweet. But I would just be happy with my Wall's Magnum or Cornetto ice-cream.

Top Chef and Masterchef

2010-11-24T20:58:00.001-08:00

I have been totally glued to all this cooking reality shows lately.

Ever since Diva (Channel 702) started showing Top Chef season 1...I have been following it religiously until now. It is aired every single day at 7pm. So, better not disturb me during this hour.

Masterchef just started a month back. Not too liking its concept. Firstly...its amateur cooks. I am alrite with that. It's the concept of the show I don't like. And Gordon Ramsay...he is too dramatic. The whole show is like so 'kan-cheong' and not natural. I just watch it coz there ain't anything to watch on Thursday. Anyway, I know who the winner is already. What a let-down! Feel like it is all planned!

Top Chef however...if you are into cooking and gourmet food...definitely can learn a lot from there. These chefs are so talented. And technicality is important to be a chef. After watching these programmes, I so want to eat in some fine dining place. But then again, paying RM200 or more for a meal per head...is something for me to think twice. Perhaps a special occasion, hubby?

Let's see the terms/ types of food that I have picked up...

Sous vide, hamachi, ceviche, frisee, pommes dauphin, carpaccio...

And the art and creativity into creating a dish is so overwhelming...

Season 1 (2006) winner: Harold Dieterle

My kids are growing so fast

2010-10-28T05:04:00.000-07:00

Sigh.

Working the whole week. Miss my kids. Coming back at 9.30pm every night.

Within just 2 days not being with Ally...Ally has changed so much and so fast. She seems bigger, heavier and more daring to walk. She walked so much yesterday. back and forth. She was so thrilled.

When I look at Ryan, he seems so much taller and his clothes are getting smaller.

When I hear him talk, he sounds so mature sometimes. I wish he was like that more often.

Really need to get a new wardrobe for both of them.

Ally seems so mischievous lately. Oh...I can't wait to spend more time with her again.

2 more days of work to go...

Romantic movies

2010-10-17T19:18:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I viewed a really heart touching movie...with all the romance and thugging at the heart strings.

Last night, after coming back from Seremban...waiting for hair to dry...decided to watch this movie..."Dear John".

Put the DVD on...suppose to be for a short while (coz it was late already) but ended up finishing the whole movie.

Anyway, the 2 main actors...Amanda Seigfried and Channing Tatum...WOW! Can feel the chemistry, man! Really romantic.

Ha! Now I am on a quest to dig out all the nice movies that make me feel mushy inside...

Last mail never came

2010-10-17T19:16:00.000-07:00

Okay...so I waster RM100 over ringgit ... someone is happily using my purchase now!

Makes me sooooo mad! That either the post man took it (which i doubt now) OR the house that was wrongly delivered never bothered to send it back to me...

Nevermind...once bitten, twice shy. No more mail order for me now...only except if I insure the order.

Finally my mail came!

2010-10-03T19:44:00.000-07:00

Hurray! Hip Hip Hurray!

I am over the moon. One down...two more to go!

Silly post man!!! Must be in the Raya mood. Went to send my parcel to the wrong address!

Thanks, kind stranger for delivering the mail back to my house!

Make it a happy day, please!

2010-09-28T00:41:00.000-07:00

Boy I feel like s*** today!

Why???

I have been at the computer for the past one hour. Blogging. Trying to feel better. But nope! Still feel like s***!

Why o why???

Maybe I am too sensitive with emotion and thoughts. I am such a softy!

-Some stuff I bought online has not arrived yet. Already one week late. Definitely lost in the mail. I hardly buy things online and this happens to me!!! Darn post! Probably the mail people have opened it up for themselves. Everyday I wait for the postman and no parcel for me!!!

-My tenant is opting for early termination. There goes my christmas plans. And more stress on doing up the place and getting new suitable tenants.

-I get involved in 'something' that I was apparently just helping and now negative thoughts/words are said to me.

-Ally is not putting on weight. Am I a terrible mother that i don't know how to feed my daughter? Or not giving her the best for her? Her weight percentile is slipping each time I weigh her at the doctor's.

-I wished I have more hands.

Poor Ryan. I let it out on him.

Up up and away...

2010-09-20T22:08:00.000-07:00

Wow... things just keep on going up.

Can't seem to be surprised each time I need to buy something.

Yesterday...was the price of gas. Usually i pay for one cylinder..RM26...yesterday RM27.60 pulak!

Then, today..went grocery shopping at Tesco first thing in the morning...straightaway my wallet lighter by RM100!

Quite a number of things at Tesco had gone up. Usually...their own in house brand eggs..RM3.99...now RM4.29! Milk too is one item that keeps on going up. Fresh and also UHT milk. A couple of months ago...Dutch Lady UHT Low fat milk 1L was about RM3++ to RM4++...now is like RM4.59-RM4.79! Even the Marigold brand went up RM0.50.

How not to price watch?

Simply want to make sure we get the best bargains.

My wallet is thin

2010-09-18T03:04:00.000-07:00

What does that mean?

For the past 2 weeks... I have not been going to work. Due to the long holidays. I can't even remember when was the last time I went in to work.

So, no work. No moo-lah.

So...wallet thin lah!

Expenses also cut down. Not much receipts in the wallet.

But from next week onwards, have to work extra days.

Good that my wallet will be fatter but sad that I will be away from my kids for a longer period.

What to cook for dinner today?

2010-09-03T01:49:00.001-07:00

Scratch! Scratch! Scratch!

My head , that is!!!

Really blur case in what to cook tonight. No inspiration.

Frankly, my cooking sucks! BIG TIME! But as you know, chinese cooking...very easy to cheat. A dash of soya sauce, a blob of oyster sauce, a splash of Shaoxing wine and .... VOILA!!! you have a tasty dish of MSG laden food sitting in front of you.

But right now, I am so tired of that dash, blob and splash thingy. All my dishes have that same pattern. At one time, I was really into checking out food blogs and getting ideas etc. But when it comes to the nitty gritty of preparing those kind of elaborate food...my laziness gets in the way. So back to dash, blob and splash!

Okay...back to tonight. My family needs to eat. They will be hungry in a couple of hours time.

Let's see. I have brinjal...ok...brinjal with mince meat. Can?

I have cabbage. Cabbage and egg...urgh! so tired of that style.

I have siew yok. But already cooking mince meat wor. Too much pork in one meal.

Oh yah...fish! I can cook fish! Yes...alright. Steam fish. Easy peasy.

That is my menu tonight.

What I did on Merdeka Weekend

2010-09-02T19:41:00.000-07:00

So many long weekends this month.

Still have no clue what to do.

Merdeka weekend...we took a drive to Putrajaya. Yah yah, that was the highlight. So exciting right??? Was only there for less than an hour. Didn't even get down from the car. I have to admit the buildings impressed me at first. Very nicely done. But then again, do we need such big beautiful buildings??? Then, after awhile, the many many traffic lights along the main road started to irritate me. No car also must stop and wait. Then my bladder was giving me trouble. Shouldn't have drank so much chinese tea during our Yong tau foo lunch. Couldn't find any toilet. Ryan then said he too wanted to pee. Ended up Hubs had to drive back to the highway and stop at a R&R.

Then, we headed straight to Bukit Cahaya at Shah Alam. But we reached there a tad too late. 4.30pm was the closing time. So we just hung outside the entrance and looked around. So exciting right???

Even though hubby had 5 days off from Fri to Tues...it seemed to pass so quickly. Everyday we had something to do. If not, even staying at home with the kids and not doing anything was enuf to drain my energy.

Anyway I had a fun Merdeka weekend. Anytime spent with family is time well spent!

:)

Boring weekend

2010-08-28T16:00:00.000-07:00

It is the long Merdeka weekend...

Friday was Nuzul Quran. Tuesday is Merdeka. So most people would take leave on Monday and it would be a long stretch weekend break. But we have no plans at all. Everyday I would just ask hubs what /where do we want to go??? Pity the kids too. Stuck at home and no where to go.

I too want to avoid crowded places. Not so good for a baby. But don't go anywhere also so 'sian'! We did go to One U on Friday. Got a safety gate for the upstairs. That time also soooo many people already.

See whether we get any ideas to do anything outdoors. The weather is the only deterrent. Suddenly I had an idea to make a day trip to Melaka. Dunno hubs will agree. Wait until he gets up!

Pretty boy

2010-08-16T19:49:00.000-07:00

Was just watching this movie...The Hangover...

Gosh... this actor Bradley Cooper is really hot! Dishy! Pretty! Really an actor!

Never really gave him a second look till this movie...

Okay...back to mother chores!!! :)

Go away...

2010-08-12T19:20:00.000-07:00

I want good fortune to descent on me and my family...

And the negative aura to go away...

For the past 2 months since June...it seems that nothing really positive and good has happened.

Allyson gets some influenza flu like symptoms and was hospitalised for 3 days after high fever for 3 days. And this was just few days after my birthday.

Then, Ryan gets sick. Also cough and fever.

Thankfully though everyone is well in time for Ally's first birthday.

We get a new camera that have been planning for some time. Joy and happiness shortlived after it gets stolen in Singapore just within one month from its purchase. Stolen due to human carelessness. Could have been prevented.

Living next to 'ugly' humans. And witnessed such an inhuman act.

Another next door neighbour gets burgled and house gets broken in in broad daylight. Just next to my house. Scary. Was terrified for days and weeks. Now we are changing our backdoor to a more solid one and putting a concrete backwall.

And my direct aunt (father's sis) in UK suddenly passes away. Was a shock to all of us. She was my favourite aunt.

When we came back from our Singapore holiday, MIL discovers a lump near Ally's groin. Did a blood test and all blood profile and liver function test seems okay.

Lump seems to have regressed. But she has developed fever the past 2 days since Wednesday evening. No other symptoms. Doc said might be viral. Might be dengue. So worried. Her fever is persistent. Keep on giving her paracetamol every 6 hours but the fever doesn't seem to go down after a dose. Will be monitoring closely.

So, that is how things are at the moment. If you ask me why I am so busy, I am just so pre-occupied with all these thoughts and emotions at the moment. I just want everything to be okay soon.

What is justice?

2010-07-17T18:31:00.001-07:00

The 'ugly' human is free...

Time for new camera

2010-07-10T08:36:00.000-07:00

Alas we are finally changing our old camera Canon A700. I think it is only about 2 years old but it is totally a grannny to all digital cameras. It is slow and cannot take photos with motion.

Keen on the Sony TX5. Hubs will probably go down to the Sony centre and get it tomorrow morning. Yipee!

Finally can take quality pictures. And will snap snap snap away...

I can't believe it!

2010-07-10T08:27:00.000-07:00

How can people call themselves 'human' when they behave worst than animals?

No conscience. No compassion. Heartless.

A few doors down... there are some people that represent the ugly side of the human race. Unfortunately, the world is full of these people and they get away with it.

I am outraged. But there is nothing I can do. Coz it is none of my business.

The past 2 nights, I have observed that they lock their maid at the back outside the house at night. FOR THE ENTIRE NIGHT. UNTIL MORNING.

Worst than a dog. Even pets have shelter. There is no porch. Just the hard cement for her to sit by the drain. If it rains, she would be wet. Not even a blanket. So she just sleeps with her clothes that she worked in.

I guess they are probably punishing her. But you don't treat a person like that. If they found her to be inefficient in her duties, then send her back to the agent. How can they live with themselves??? Well, obviously they could and they can. And they probably don't even feel bad about it!

All I can say is 'you reap what you sow!'

Sigh!

Feeling sad

2010-06-21T04:09:00.000-07:00

Today, my aunty ( Um-Koo) passed away. She was only 62 years old. She has been living in UK since getting married.

It was sudden and unexpected. She suffered from a brain aneurysm and she was on life support for almost 10 days before the doctors suggested that things are not going to improve.

I feel life is so fragile. She had so much still to live for. She was fighting for cancer of the bone actually. But it was controlled. And it wasn't the cancer that took her life.

I will miss her although I only see her once a year.

Sore eye!

2010-05-31T20:09:00.000-07:00

Since Saturday, my right eye has been sore. At first I thought it was an eye infection coz it was red and teary on that day. So I quickly went to get Neo Deca eye drops.

But as the days are progressing, the redness has subsided but the soreness is more prominent. My entire eye ball feels like it is burning and swollen inside. But from outside, it looks normal.

I still applying the eye drops but I don't think it is really helping. I am more worried the steroid in it will make it worse. By right, the steroid should have reduced the swelling by now.

Never had this kind of thing before.

Hate the feeling.

My most expensive bag thus far...

2010-05-24T03:43:00.000-07:00

I gave up looking for a bag on ebay...

Was going to get some no brand bag already coz my current bag is looking really ratty. I normally carry no brand bags coz I am not really bothered about brands. But decided I want a change.

Branded bags were out of my budget. But i was willing to spend if I saw some thing that caught my fancy. Looked at Guess, Fossil, DKNY, Radley... nothing.

Then, last Saturday ... we were at One Utama. Nine West was having a 15% discount storewide. Went in and looked at the bags. Nothing really screamed to me. Then, I dragged Hubby inside to ask him to have a look. He saw a bag and said that is so me. Hhhmmm... how come I didn't see that bag? Ok... price range is not normally what I would spend on a bag. But, brown is my favourite colour.

So, now I am RM271 poorer.

And where is the bag now?

Still sitting on my piano stool. One week have passed and I haven't even looked at it yet after coming home.

I think I too sayang to use such a pricey bag. I rather have a al-cheapo bag so I can use it for market and shopping and work. More versatile.

Buy expensive bag... don't use. Silly or what?

American Idol Season 9 sucks!

2010-05-11T23:16:00.000-07:00

This is the first time I am following American Idol which I feel totally and utterly bored. I would say I am semi-following it now since dwindling down to the final 6.

Some how, this year's line up isn't interesting. I don't feel that buzz every time I switch on the telly to view it. For last year's AI, my heart would be racing with excitement whenever the music started and the contestants come on stage. And especially when Adam Lambert appears.

This year, it is obvious my favourite is Lee Dewyze. But that's it. That's all! No one else. The rest makes me yawn. Especially Crystal Bowersox! Actually ALL of them.

I will see AI coz there isn't anything really interesting to watch now on telly. Maybe its just that AI is losing its lustre. Its thing! Well, will see about it next year especially when Mr Cowell is no longer with the show.

How could I miss my friends wedding???

2010-05-10T18:48:00.000-07:00

Darren and Khimmy are getting married!

It was the greatest news to me coz they were my really really old childhood friends. And through God's grace and intervention, they somehow met a few years ago and now they are tying the knot. One friend is an old church friend and one friend is an ex-schoolmate.

When I heard the news (which was very belated- of course!)... I was totally surprised but elated for both of them. Darren is like a brother to me... and I love making the mickey out of him. Well, now being a married man already... got to restrain myself in terms of the jokes that I make to him.

Anyway, he sent me the wedding card via e-mail. Darren is working in Australia. I received the e-card about a month back. Knowing me, I don't really pay attention to dates until the very last minute. I just knew the wedding would be some time in May.

So now May is here... I was thinking to myself...better retrieve the e-card and check the date. I kept on procrastinating it... I retrieved an old email of Darren's...but there was no sign of the e-card...so I had to look further back but didn;t get down to it.

Before I knew it... May 8th arrived. I was working that day. A little voice told me "better go and call Yi lin and check with her when the wedding is..." but I got pre-occupied and forgot about it. True enough, I received an sms from Yi Lin in the evening asking me where am I at the wedding dinner... and that she didn't see me there!!!

OMG! When I read that sms... I felt totally silly and bad! HOW COULD I MISS THEIR WEDDING????????

I kinda of was looking forward to attend the church ceremony and to see them as I have not seen both of them in years! And to wish them all the best....!

So sad! So sad! I guess I can only see the photos via Facebook!

Hot weather is here again!

2010-05-03T19:11:00.000-07:00

Just like last year... around this time... the weather was a torture. Scorching heat.

Yesterday, somehow the sun was extra angry. So darn hot. Blazing. My whole house was like a sauna. We practically switched on the air con from evening till this morning.

Ally was also retaining heat. When she is here at home, she gets all heated up. Once I send her over to the babysitter, she gets cooled down. Had to give her a dose of paracetamol to regulate her body temperature.

Arrggh! Just wanna have a nice cool swim or drink some nice cold Ice lemon tea...

Frustrated!

2010-04-27T18:54:00.000-07:00

Feeling really frustrated and disappointed...

It is hard to express oneself sometimes...

...often get misunderstood.

...I hate being misunderstood.

...especially if your intentions are good.

Heavy expenses

2010-04-24T01:39:00.000-07:00

Oh boy...

I don't believe how much I have spent this month...

What I spent is much much more than my monthly income..

How come?

Credit card bill...more than RM2K... due to my insurance (increased my premium last month)
Car service yesterday...more than RM1K...major service and air-cond service altogether (long overdue)
Bought a new handphone 2 weeks ago (old hp speaker was wonky and couldnt take pictures anymore)
Needed new clothes badly (desperate for a change in wardrobe style)
Old apartment maintenance fees due
Indah water bill due
Allyson needs new clothes...old ones getting tight and short

Next month... have to cut down eating out and kai-kai trips...
Possible?
Self-discipline

Sick for One Week

2010-03-13T02:50:00.000-08:00

Sigh...

When I get sick, it normally lasts rather long. But I seldom fall sick. Probably once in 6 months. So I guess it compensates for the long interval.

Have been sick since last Sunday. Not too serious. First it was sore throat. Two days later, sore throat went away and cough developed. I blame the watermelon that I ate on the second day. Ate too much of it.Until today, still coughing and my voice is still sexy and hoarse. Have been self-medicating myself. Probably not compliant enough. Should have started with antibiotics earlier.

Anyway, still moving about like normal. Just went to Sunway Pyramid today. Ryan's birthday today. He chose to eat at Sakae Sushi. First time I was eating Gyu Don. Quite nice.

Hunt for a Designer Bag

2010-03-09T02:49:00.000-08:00

Actually what do you define as a designer bag?

If it is in the 4 digit price range? or if the name of the bag is by a fashion designer?

I really don't know. But I have been having this urge to treat myself to a really nice leather bag. Well, actually it is not a new thought. Have been fiddling with this idea for I think a few years! Yeap... a few years! See how much initiative I have about getting something I want. The thing is that I have been looking around a few brands for a long time... and nothing really attracts me. Well, if I am gonna pay like something which is the amount I earn... I better think twice or more like hundred times before I make the purchase right?

Normally, when I am free or feel the urge, I just look at Ebay and see whether there any nice designs. Then, the next thing that comes to my mind is..."Is it a fake? How can I trust the seller? What if I am conned?"... that is a big joke walking around with a fake thinking it is genuine. Some more my hard earned money! So after all those questions circling in my mind, I just give up looking and I am back at square one. And end up with my usual bags from Jusco or Parkson...

My current bag is already falling apart (Jusco brand)...so I have to search again. I was thinking of Radley bags the other day... was pretty keen on them...saw that Robinson's was having a sale that day... but after seeing their collection, I decided to give that brand a miss. There is something I don't like about the leather they use. Or maybe the designs they had there wasn't very nice.

Then, I went to Kate Spade's boutique at the Gardens. Wow...the price also very nice. I wouldn't mind have splurged on her bags... but the current designs weren't very impressive. So, now I am looking at Kate Spade's bags on ebay...but there are alot of fakes for that brand. Sigh! Everything also got risk right?

Saw a Michael Kors bag too...nice and less than RM1K.

Possible candidate?

More to see...

What's next?

2010-02-22T01:03:00.000-08:00

We are in the middle of CNY now...

Hot humid CNY...that is what I can describe the weather during this festival.

So what else can we look forward to?

In another week is hubby's birthday. And also Chap Goh Mei! We will be going back to Seremban to celebrate there. I am planning to make reservations at Chilli's at One Utama for hub's birthday. But not sure which day.

Then, in 2 weeks time... is Ryan's birthday. March 13th. So some planning to do. Thinking of doing some Shabu-Shabu steamboat at my place for my side of the family. For Seremban family.. probably lunch at a restaurant there.

Also in the works is a weekend getaway to Singapore. We will probably leave Ally with MIL in Seremban. Just a short 2 nights 3 days stay. Was aiming for the first week of March. But looking that it may be rather rush... I think we will probably postpone it. Haven't even made a passport for Ryan yet. At first, initially we were planning to go to Hong Kong Disneyland in March. But I kept on calling the travel agents in early January to mid January and didn't seem to have any dates for March. So, I come of gave it a miss this time. Will keep it in view.
Ryan was actually very keen to go to Disneyland. But I guess he won't know the difference between Singapore and Hong Kong.

Looks it will be a pretty tiring month ahead too. I really need a haircut too. So many things to do and so little time.

What to have for breakfast?

2010-02-20T08:17:00.000-08:00

I am totally blur on what to eat for breakfast now.

Bored.Running out of ideas, eating the same thing week after week.

Tuna sandwich.
Kaya and bread.
Peanut butter and jam.
Breakfast cereal.

Looking for a good brand of coffee too. Sick and tired of Nescafe.

Want to try some really good Italian coffee. But expensive. Hhhmmm... a little of indulgence can do me some good right?

Change of Plans

2009-11-21T19:34:00.000-08:00

Today... heard the girl coughing in the morning...although she was already coughing slightly yesterday.

The boy has been sick since Friday... cough and cold. Got from school. Again.

We were planning to go down to Seremban today. To visit the in-laws.

Cannot go already. Poor Ryan. Disappointed. Has been looking forward to see his cousins since 2 weeks ago.

Was planning to put up the Christmas tree too today. No sun. Cloudy day. Need to sun it first. But having second thoughts in putting up the tree. Coz wouldn't want my present cockroach family to have an extra place to venture to. Perhaps spray the tree with citronella... would that ward off the roaches???

Another full day staying at home. Sigh. Sometimes its tiring staying at home. I rather go out. But I have so many things to do here. Lots of tidying up.

Little girl is sleeping now next to me on her bouncing chair with the pacifier in her mouth. Hubs is cooking his own brunch (smells like fried egg) and the boy is playing with his puzzles and toys.

This is a stay-in Sunday feeling...

My Christmas Shopping List

2009-11-10T08:29:00.000-08:00

Best part about Christmas is shopping for presents for the family and friends. Especially the kids ( my sisters kids and mine). But getting presents for the kids can also be the hardest since kids now have everything...

I plan to get Ryan a car set.... either a police station or maybe a fire station. Not sure. Need to make a trip to Toys R Us soon. He also asked me to get him a pair of sunglasses.

As for Allyson... I guess clothes would be the most practical for her. Or a development toy. I like Lamaze toys. Wait for sale.

Normally every year, my sisters and I would give ideas what to get for each others children. Coz we wouldn't want to get a present and the children already have that.

As for my father... maybe something for the kitchen???

I am thinking to get for my in-laws each a nice king size bedsheet... and vouchers too. See lah... depending on my budget.

Ryan and his cousins in Kong Kong's house for Christmas last year

My Christmas Wish List

2009-11-07T00:08:00.000-08:00

I can't believe that Christmas is about one month from now. Time to plan my Christmas present list and also my Christmas lunch for my in-laws. Although I am not much in the Christmas mood yet, better start planning early coz the days will surely fly by very quickly.

So... what would I like for Christmas...???

(Scratch head)

1. Photo frames to put the kids pictures in it

2. Sports shoes - for exercise

3. A silver pendant and chain (from Perlini)

4. A food processor (Phillips brand) for blending food for Allyson

5. Clarks shoes ( saw these Mary Janes yesterday... nice!)

6. More baking equipment???

7. A new fragrance (some thing light and feminine... last time I bought a perfume was like 2 years ago...)

So... hubs... take your pick... which one of the above that would be sitting under my Christmas tree??? Hint! Hint!

New tastes

2009-11-06T01:11:00.000-08:00

Got this Pringles Soft shell crab chips last week... couldn't resist not trying this flavour. Was suppose to keep to my 'Healthy eating' motto...but what the heck... a few pieces of sodium-filled chips won't harm me, right?

Anyway, it tasted okay. Only okay but very very saltish. Needed to drink a whole cup of water after that. Had to limit myself to 3-4 pieces each time. But hubs enjoyed it.

Sometimes its nice to have a change once in a while. Do something from the norm. So what did I do? I bought Nissin noodles yesterday!!! haha! Great big deal, right? Well, for one... I would NEVER spend RM7.50 on a pack of instant noodles. But well, never say NEVER!

I got the japanese flavoured noodles that came with seaweed. Had it for lunch today.

Any good?

For about RM1.50 per packet as compared to RM0.80 for Maggi Mee... I would say it is worth the money lah! More tasty and the portions are bigger. Also more unsual flavours. After having eaten Maggi Mee all my life and exposing myself to flavours like Chicken, Curry and Assam Laksa... of course seeing different flavours from Nissin is refreshing!

Hurray for change!!

What's on my mind?

2009-10-30T00:58:00.000-07:00

Check out Adam Lambert's first single... totally amazing! Knew he won't let me down.

It has been raining almost everyday. Heavy rain too. Hard for clothes to dry. Miss the sun.

Got a new cot bumper for Allyson. From World of Cartoons. Made a mistake. Too big. Can't decide whether to keep or return.

Had quite a terrible lunch today. Macaroni with tuna, apples, raisins and brocolli.

Spent RM4.80 on a 8 Grain loaf of bread yesterday. Keeping up with my 'healthy living' mission!

Have a new template for this blog. And just started another new blog just for the kids photos.

Been taking Hypocol since last week. 2 capsules twice a day.

Hubs and I are declaring war against the cockroach colony multiplying in our home. (With Baygon and Combat)

Need a wardrobe makeover badly!

Darn! Got to work tomorrow.

Got the boy his first watch... Ben 10 watch! And he doesn't even like the cartoon.

Halloween is tomorrow. Bah... !

I want to eat chocolates. Lots of them sitting in the fridge!

Miss my baby girl...

My baby girl has a flat head.

Should I go down to Klang this weekend?

What should I cook for dinner today?

Totally afraid of heavy vehicles on the road now... after the sudden tyre explosion from a neighbouring truck just directly next to me!

I am bored!

2009-10-24T09:04:00.000-07:00

I am too lazy to write a post... so I will just load some pictures.

The other day, I was feeling bored and decided to take pictures around my house. Just as a reminder to me on how my house looked like on this particular day 13th October 2009.

My messy fridge

Ryan's collection of books over 3 years

Time to throw this potato away

My messy kitchen

My messy living room

Naughty boy napping

Neglected plant

Favourite washing liquid... smells heavenly!
Sometimes I want to bathe in it!

Heath Check Failed!

2009-10-20T00:38:00.000-07:00

I am so worried and upset!

My full blood report came back yesterday and it was NOT good news!

I have been having elevated blood cholesterol for the past 5 years already... or since I started doing my annual blood screening. But it has been marginal. I was totally shocked ( and felt slightly faint!) when I saw my cholesterol readings yesterday.

Here is the summary:

2009
Total cholesterol 6.3 mmol/L
HDL 1.5 mmol/L
LDL 4.3 mmol/L
Triglycerides 1.2 mmol/L

2007 2006
5.6 5.2
1.49 1.33
3.7 3.55
0.8 0.7

2005
6.0
1.9
3.7
1.4

I didn't do in 2008 coz I was pregnant at that time. According to my gynae, the readings wouldn't be accurate.

Looks like 2009 is the worst year although 2005 was pretty high too. Wonder why it was so high at that time? Anyway, whatever it is... my arteries are pretty clogged up now. I can picture all the fatty deposits narrowing my arteries.

First thing that came to my mind was... what can I do now?
No.1 - Change my diet?
Ah yo. Right now I am so skinny already and I eat pretty healthily. I hardly eat all those fatty pork and red meat. Even seafood is a once a month affair. I do eat eggs but only about 3 times a week and that is 2 eggs shared by 3 people. I can't imagine how it can affect my cholesterol level. Fried food too is a very rare treat to me. My favourite most high cholesterol food would be duck rice but I only indulge in that once in 2 weeks the most. My breakfast is also pretty simple but I guess eating kaya and peanut butter isn't very healthy if it is an everyday affair.

After evaluating my eating pattern, I guess I don't eat much fatty foods but I also don't eat very healthily. So, I have to incorporate more vegetables in my diet, cut down on my meat intake, eat more fish (which we hardly do) and for breakfast, a bowl of oats every morning.
I suppose I can start like that first and see how it goes after 3 months.

No.2 - Exercise?
Okay... I admit that I don't exercise at all! But I don't lead a sedentary lifestyle either. I am on my feet for almost the entire day. Either doing housechores or running around here and there getting stuff for the house. I find myself rushing and my heartbeat beating rapidly most of the time coz there isn't enough time in a day to do everything.
So my plan is... once dropping Ryan at school.. to run around the park near my house at least 3 times a week. Possible? Need new running shoes first!

No.3 - Supplements?
First thing I would do when I get to work is get a pack of Hypocol. It is red yeast rice extract in capsule form and it helps lower cholesterol level similar to the statins. Minus the side effects apparently. I have many customers who take this supplements as a subsitute to the statin groups... and i have seen cases that work and some that don't. I will give it a try for 3 months.

No.4 - Family History of Cardiovascular Disease (CVD)
My mother died at the age of 60 because of stroke. My dad has diabetes, high BP and cholesterol too. So, in some ways, I don't think I can run away from my fate of having CVD. It is a matter of confronting it and dealing with it.

This recent cholesterol reading probably has shaken me most coz I feel I must take more responsibility for my health now since now I have 2 children and I am not getting any younger. 33 years old still very young and if I don't take care now, I don't think I may live to see my grandchildren! Seriously.

Look at my hands!

2009-10-08T20:14:00.000-07:00

This is how the state of my hands were during the 2 weeks I had to wear latex disposable gloves when Ryan and I had HFMD!

Worst than an old woman hand. ( Have to enlarge to see)

It is definitely the powder in those gloves that makes the skin so sensitive. Next time must get those powder-free gloves.

Had bought this Neutrogena Hand Cream a month back. Didn't really like the consistency of the cream. Very thick and oily. Hard to apply. But had no choice... coz the condition of my hands were so bad. Helped a bit. Better than not applying anything. Anyone know of any good hand cream out there?

I give thanks

2009-10-04T01:54:00.000-07:00

Although I have not been an active Christian for years... God answered my prayers.

And I am so thankful to HIM.

He heard my cries.

I cried for my children. I didn't want them to suffer. I asked HIM to protect them.

And HE did!

Ryan's 3rd time of HFMD was rather mild although he suffered discomfort in his mouth for 3 days. He didn't have fever this time around.

Allyson was the innocent one. I was so afraid for her. I totally didn't want the virus to get to her. She is too young to endure that kind of pain and discomfort. I did all I could in my power to protect her. And I left it to God.

At one point... 5 days after Ryan got his attack, she started to refuse to drink her milk. I cried. I thought I had failed and she was starting to get the infection. For one whole day, she only drank 2 feeds. I cried everytime she refused. I got angry. Angry with people. Angry with myself. Then, I asked HIM again ... please... please...let Allyson drink her milk. And the next day, in the early morning... she took her full feed.

God is a forgiving God. HE still heard my cries eventhough I have turned away for so many years. HE knows my heart is pure and sincere... and I love my children with all my heart and soul.

Thank you GOD!

Disastrous Bake!

2009-09-25T00:46:00.001-07:00

It was second day of Hari Raya.

Since we couldn't go anywhere due to the H1N1 pandemic, I had planned to make some cupcakes. Took out the some recipe books... flipped thru... and saw this recipe in the Australian Women's Weekly cookery book on pies and cakes. Looked pretty easy. Took out the hand mixer... first time using it...normally use a wooden spoon to mix the ingredients.

Everything was easy and simple.

But to my disappointment... the end result was yucky. I did modify the recipe here and there and added raisins for Ryan. Maybe it wasn't meant to have raisins. Turned out so hard, dry and dense.

Made 12 cupcakes and there are still 6 sitting in the fridge. That explains how scrumptous it is!

Say farewell to Breast Milk

2009-09-04T00:30:00.000-07:00

I am officially 'milk-less' already.

If I squeeze hard enough, I get little drops of milk amounting to probably 20 ml after 30 mins of expressing.

So sad, huh???

All the mothers out there who are blessed with an abundance of breast milk, lucky you!!!

More Free Time

2009-09-04T00:16:00.000-07:00

Ever since sending Allyson to the babysitter at the beginning of this month, I have had much more time to spend with Ryan and myself. Eventhough it may be just a couple of hours. Evidently from the number of posts that I have written in this week.

If I don't work, I will send Allyson around 11 something and pick her up around 5 something. Unless I have some errands to run... then I may send her a little bit earlier. I still feel so guilty whenever I look at the babysitter's house from my house. Knowing that Allyson is just right there and I am not with her ( Babysitter's house is right opposite my house).

But I know this is the choice I have made against having a maid. And I am very much happier with this choice if compared to having a maid. So I guess some things have to be sacrificed in order for me to have a less stressful life. I tell myself it is not the quantity of time I spend with Allyson... it is the quality. So I pay someone to take care of her while I have time for the house and Ryan. If not, I am just spreading myself thin. Haha.. that is what I tell myself to feel guilt free. Am I a bad mother for thinking like this?

Today I finally had the time to collect Allyson's Mykids from Shah Alam. And then I dropped by Tesco. Was 20 minutes late fetching Ryan from school. Got home... bathe the boy and cooked our lunch (Broccoli with mushrooms and pork, scrambled eggs with tomatoes) and finally wash Allyson's clothes. I have some time to do blogging and read my book before fetching Mei Mei. (Am reading 'Remember Me?' by Sophie Kinsella now... very funny and interesting)

The day just passes so fast. With a blink of an eye... it is already evening. Hubby is going to nag me coz even now that Allyson is at the babysitter, looks like I am more lazy in cleaning the house as compared to when I was taking care of her full time. Probably coz I using my free time to blog and read now.

Good day

2009-08-26T23:51:00.000-07:00

After a few tiring days in a row... seems like today is turning 'not-so-bad' so far. (Ahem! Better not speak too soon, huh?)

Well, if I can be sitting at the computer at 3.00pm in the afternoon and both the kids are sleeping, I guess I will deem it as 'okay' day.

What's the difference?

I put Allyson to sleep upstairs in her cot. Whenever she napped today, I quickly put her in her room upstairs. So I can do all the house chores downstairs. When Ryan came back from school, I quickly put her in her room too. Luckily she nodded off in the car. So I could cook our lunch and feed the boy. Then, I quickly bathe the boy. Noticed that I wrote a lot of 'quickly'. Well, I guess everything I do has to be really fast and noiseless. Don't want to wake up the 'princess'!

Anyhow, she will wake up soon for her feed.

Note: Allyson has been sleeping through the night since last week. Except for a few days in between. The difficult part is getting her to sleep. She is very sensitive and every time her head touches the pillow, she wakes up. Two nights ago, it took me 3 hours to get her to sleep. After all the rocking and singing that didn't work, she ended up nodding off on her own while I was checking her diapers!!!

Bye Bye Breast Milk

2009-08-24T03:10:00.001-07:00

I am about to surrender...put out the white flag.

My breastmilk is almost down to nil now. I know it is my fault.

I only express twice a day now... can't help it. Really can't find the time to sit down and pump. I am like squeezing every last drop I can get right now. I get only 1.5oz now each time. Some times when I am really tired and stressed, I get 1 oz only. So pathetic. I really find some satisfaction knowing that Allyson is getting some form of natural nutrition from me. Even by drinking such little amount.

Sorry, Allyson!

First Indulgence after Green Light

2009-08-14T02:40:00.000-07:00

So what was the first thing I went for after the one-month confinement?

Yep... I finally got my coffee fix after 9 months of abstaining from it!

Did it taste great?

Actually, nope! It didn't give my any 'rasa' ! I was drinking as if it was like water. But now, I am back to drinking it every morning. Must have one cup. Don't dare go more than one cup.. in case it may keep Allyson awake!

Zombie!

2009-08-06T18:44:00.000-07:00

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I am a walking zombie!

Well, welcome to motherhood all over again!!!

Haha! Whenever I am kept awake by Allyson in the wee hours of the morning, I think of the other mothers in my position right at that moment. Rocking the wide-eyed baby to sleep... getting her to relax for the past one hour... quietly putting her in her crib... and 5 seconds later... her eyes opens!!! And she CRIES!!!

I remember that was the case with Ryan too. But I think Allyson is a more fussy sleeper. But only during the night. Somehow, in the day time, she sleeps easier.

Today is Day No.6 with Allyson alone. The routine has already been established. I still get 'kan-cheong' when she doesn't burp after her feed. I still get 'kan-cheong' when she sleeps past her feeding time during the day.

Last night, I only managed to sleep at 4am. I was so exhausted coz Allyson kept on waking up after I put her in her bed. She was wailing and crying very loudly and uncontrollably at one point... I got worried! But after giving her the pacifier, she quietened down. But when the pacifier came out, she cried again! I thought it may be wind. But it seems okay now. I just attribute it to she was tired and was getting very agitated! When she woke up again at 4 something crying, I just cried to her and begged her to sleep coz I couldn't carry her anymore. I left her in the crib and stroked her forehead and she finally fell asleep! So so relieved!!!

ok.... should be getting rest now since she is napping too. Got to do some housework too. Ah.. will do it slightly later.

Look at that tomato cheeks!!!

Must keep healthy!

2009-07-26T19:58:00.000-07:00

Oh no... my nose is starting to get itchy and runny! Hope it is just some allergic reaction! Been coughing today. Ryan has been complaining of phlegm since 2 days ago.

Don't want to fall sick when Pui Yit goes home. More worried about the baby. Need to be TOP form.

Better get some Vitamin C effervescent tablets !

21st day of Confinement

2009-07-22T19:55:00.000-07:00

Today is the 3rd week since Allyson was born.

I am filled with lots of anxiety right now. Don't know why my mood is like a roller coaster. When I look at Allyson, I smile and my heart is filled with love and joy for this little bundle. Then, a minute later, when Ryan gets irritating and just being plain right naughty, I will start to yell at him and even give him a whacking or two! I normally don't get so irate so easily. I normally don't beat him so easily. But yesterday, somehow I was very very short fused! And I let it out on my boy!

Totally feel bad. I looked at him last night as Ryan slept next to me... I just felt so guilty and my eyes welled up with tears. I love him so very much and I don't want to hurt him.

I know what I am feeling is the post natal hormones making me like an emotional sap!
I got to take control of my emotions and don't let this post-natal mood swings get the better of me. Hubby doesn't really understand too... so I guess I got to get over it by myself. Make myself busy. I guess.

So, now... i have given myself a little project. To collect some yummy home-cooked recipes from blogs.. categorize them according to different types of food...eg. chicken, pork, soups, beancurd...and then it will be easier for me to refer to them next month. I am contemplating to stop the caterer but then again, I don't think I can handle cooking for 3 adults and looking after a newborn and toddler without any help. But the caterer's food is getting boring ( 2nd month now only). Another option is to reduce the number of heads ( from 3 to 2) and just top up a dish or two every night. Maybe will do that. Also, I plan to list out the menu for the whole week.. so that I can plan what I want to get from the market on a weekly basis.

Being everyday at home... the pui yit and I follow the 5pm TV8 chinese serial...'Shining Stars' or is it 'Shooting Stars'... something like that. Then at 6pm, she follows the AEC Korean serial 'Married with six children'...then at 7pm, we both watch 'Heart of Greed' at TV8 again.Don't know whether she should be watching so much TV... but I feel bad for her. Anyway, the baby is sleeping around that time... and she does cook around 7.30pm for me. Watching these serials are making the days pass really really quickly! (the actor Raymond Lam from 'Heart of Greed' is kinda of dishy!!!)

My breast milk is still the same. Not increase in volume. And that is adding to my anxiety. Sigh. Why other mothers don't seem to have the problem getting milk??? Even skinny slim friends.. have lots of milk being churned out. I must be doing some thing wrong. Still trying to be patient. I pump 4 times a day. Know it is not enough. So trying to increase to 5 times a day since Tuesday. Still don't see much increment in volume. Still getting around 1.5 oz to 2 oz each time. Allyson has stopped suckling on my breast since the 1st week. She gets all red like a tomato and cries in such distress when I put her to my breast that I don't want to force her. Maybe I shouldn't have given up so fast.

Look at that cheeky face. Allyson certainly looks like her
kor kor at that age

My 2 lovely kids...joy of my life

Half Way Through Confinement

2009-07-15T20:01:00.000-07:00

Today is my 14th day after delivery.

Pui Yit will be going back in another 2 more weeks.

Sob! Sob! I have gotten really spoilt and contented in having someone in the house to help me. It is nice too having company. I feel safe and someone mothering me!

Have to admit that I haven't been a good 'mummy' during this confinement. I always forget to wear my slippers and socks. I wash the plates and cups eventhough she will be yelling at me to just put it in the sink. Been touching alot of cold water. I washed my hair after the 5th day of delivery. I bathed after coming back from the hospital. I went out to Tesco one week after delivery. I drove and sent Ryan to school 5 days after delivery.

Just worried of the 'after' effects... like bone pain, back pain etc. if I don't take care now. But somehow, what about those mothers who don't have maids or confinement ladies??? Surely they too have to run the household right after childbirth... whether they like it or not.

I guess I shouldn't be so stubborn... since I have some 'help' for a month, I should utilise it, right?

Just because I feel fine and dandy now, doesn't mean few years down the road, I won't have any bodyaches attributed from not taking care after childbirth?

Allyson is awake now. She had a nice long sleep since 7.30am... will go and play with her now before I fetch her Kor-Kor from school!

Breast feeding worries

2009-07-13T04:46:00.000-07:00

Allyson is 12 days old today.

As I am typing on the keyboard now, she is sleeping in the playpen downstairs being accompanied by the Pui Yit.

I have to admit that I haven't really been hands-on in taking care of Allyson since she was born. I guess I will let the Pui Yit handle Allyson until maybe one week before she has to leave. Kind of nervous on how to burp her and bathe her when I am all alone. Right now, I feel so safe coz I have some one experienced who knows how to look after babies. I have forgotten all those ways on how to take care of baby when Ryan was born. I guess it will come back to me when I really have to face it.

Allyson is almost on 100% formula feed at the moment. I know I haven't really emphasised purely on breastfeeding. The first few days when she was born, I tried putting her to the breast to suckle. But after several days, I gave up forcing her to suckle coz she was always struggling and crying when I put her to the breast. Maybe I shouldn't have gave up so fast. I felt so bad pushing her. My nipples were also not very easy to latch on and she got frustrated after awhile. So now, I am pumping out my milk. Now into Day 12,my milk supply has remained stagnant ... not increasing. Worried when will I get the let-down. Each time I pump, I only get about 40-50ml of milk... and I try to pump every 3-4 hours. I don't pump at night. Guess the frequency of extracting is probably one of the reasons why the milk supply is low. Should try letting her suckle again. Not sure whether she will still take to the breast after so many days of not suckling.

Hai.. worry worry worry. I really want to give her breast milk. I want her to be a strong baby with natural antibodies. I guess I just don't want to depend on synthetically produced milk.
But no point stressing myself about it if my breastmilk really doesn't really come in. As long as I know I tried and gave my best...

Allyson looking contented

Let the countdown begin!

2009-06-27T17:00:00.001-07:00

Today is Sunday...

Due date on Thursday...

That means 5 days to go...

Woke up to pee... now couldn't go back to sleep!

Thinking what to pack in the hospital bag.

All I can think of is ...

For mummy :

Toothbrush
Toothpaste
Facial wash
Face towel
Hand wash
2 pair of pants
2 pair of tops
Underwear
Maternity pads
A book

For baby :

Diapers
Mittens and booties
A blanket
A hat for her head
Some face towels
(Should I take milk bottles too???)

Will pack by today.

Tomorrow some people will come to do the laminate flooring for the baby room. Air-conditioner is already up since last Friday. MIL will come on Wednesday night. Hubby will fetch her from Seremban.

(There is an irritating mosquito trying to suck my blood now. So far, he already bit me twice on the leg already!)

My big baby playing with my baby

Connection problem

2009-06-25T00:09:00.000-07:00

Hai... just when i want to write things down, my computer connection has to go kaput! Don't know what is wrong. Very slow. Cannot access internet. Always hang.

So, using my sister's computer at her house.

Well, one more week before delivery. Still doing all the usual daily routine. Shopping, sending Ryan to school, cleaning the house etc. Stopped working already. Get breathless easily. Rather bored at home. Nothing to do. No cooking too. Only cook Ryan and my lunch in the afternoon.

So afraid I forgot to do something. Everything is prepared but still messy.

OK off to One Utama now...

Counting the days...

2009-06-17T02:05:00.000-07:00

Hai... another scorching hot day!

Hubby will be coming back late and I will be alone with the boy till late at night. Gets rather lonely sometimes.

My tummy is huge now. Everything I wear is so tight. It is getting really near to the due date now. I am actually half excited and half nervous. I guess I am 85% prepared already. Only thing is to fix the air-cond in the baby room and downstairs. Clothes and essential needs I think pretty much got everything already. Just bought the baby mobile from Tesco today ( saw in Babyland at RM39.90 ) but it was priced at RM35.00. So faster got it. And I got some baby clothes ( Anakku) brand for RM5.00 a top. It is nice to hunt for bargains!!! Feel very rewarding!

I also got some clothes for my confinement already. Some big baggy comfortable tops and bottoms to wear for the entire month that I will be house bound. Also at a bargain at Brands Outlet!! I am going out to the shopping malls at least twice a week now... enjoying my freedom as much as possible and to get as many things prepared!

It is getting harder to walk now. I really look like a penguin waddling away. My ankles are swollen now. At least this time, my ankles only got swollen during the last month of pregnancy. With Ryan, I remember they got swollen pretty early. Sleeping also is getting more and more 'san-foo'!

At the moment, I am cherishing all the moments that we can have mother-father-son time with Ryan. Coz once baby comes out, I don't think we even have time to sit around with the boy and listen to all his stories and guide him with his activities! But I hope hubby and I can learn to divide our time between baby and Ryan... so that the boy will still feel loved and not neglected!

One more month...

2009-06-03T09:00:00.000-07:00

Wow.. i cannot believe how time can just fly by like that. You would think that 9 months is a long damn time... but it surely is surreal that it feels like a bat of an eyelid.

I guess the last trimester of pregnancy is 'memang' like that... coz with all the preparation, anxiety and planning...that will take alot of time. Every night now I go to bed thinking about my plans and what I have to do. Think only... but nothing seems to be materialising.

By next month same date, if baby is obedient, she will come out on the due date. I am planning to ask doc to induce her by 4th July. But I think it is a Saturday.

I definitely feel heavier now. Walk also look like a penguin. The only thing difficult is when I get up from a sitting or lying position. Somehow hurts at the groin area. Normal I guess. Other than that, I can still spend the half a day shopping at One U and not feel tired after that.
At this moment, still haven't decided on a name of baby. Chinese name totally still clueless. That is hubby's responsibility. I want a simple name and yet not too common. The names that I like somehow either it doesn't match with the surname or someone I know already has it.

We started catering today. Got tired of planning what to cook and the hassle of buying groceries here and there. One day I will drive to Tesco or Carrefour to get the chicken, and the next day will drive to the market to get vegetables. If I want organic, have to go to Jusco (cheaper).
Three adults rate is RM400 per month. Today's portion was rather small and disappointing. Will see how it goes tomorrow. I just hope they didn't mistaken that I paid for 2 people instead of 3!

Still so many things not done yet! Air-cond, water heater, bouncing chair, to sun the mattress, get my breast pump and steriliser back from my sister...i know everything will be left to the last minute. As usual!

Ps: My sisters treated me to Delicious today at One U. Second time there. Food tasty but rather pricey. Iris got me a baby monitor from HK... nice. So cheap RM120! And I have my first pair of Crocs shoes.

Feeling Guilty!

2009-05-23T20:25:00.000-07:00

I committed the ultimate 'sin'...

I ate fried chicken skin!!!!!!!!!

Normally, with KFC, i would put the skin aside knowing of the absolutely high likelihood of the fats clogging up my arteries! But yesterday, when I was having Popeye's Fried Chicken (for the second time)... the first thought that came to my mind was "What the heck!"

It was just freshly fried and the batter was crisp and light. I couldn't resist throwing it away. I took one bite... yummy... then 'whack-ed' the rest of the chicken...!!!

Oh no... i dare not test my cholesterol level after I have given birth! Nevermind lah. I told myself that I would be banned from all these food for the next 2 months...so I might as well indulge a little!

Baking...

2009-05-20T20:20:00.000-07:00

Have not been baking much the past months.

All the ingredients are sitting in the fridge. So sometimes, when I am not bitten by the 'lazy' bug, I will suddenly feel like making something.

Had some leftover puff pastry from Christmas time. So decided to make Chicken Pie. I also had some leftover whipping cream that i used for making pasta sauce. So Voila! For an afternoon tea time snack. Simple pie. Nothing fancy. Pies are one of my favourite food and pretty easy to make. Can eat enough la.

I had always wanted to try making muffins... so first attempt in making muffins was not a failure neither was it a success. It just came out somehow quite hard and solid. The butter smell was rather strong too. Next time I have to put less butter.

Next recipe I am looking at is No-bake Oreo Cheesecake. I suppose that would be a treat to myself before my confinement days. Sounds simple... just need to get my tin first.

Baby @ 32 weeks

2009-05-16T16:11:00.000-07:00

Went for check up earlier this week.

Yippee hurray! The baby has turned head down! I felt so happy and relieved when the doc told me during the scan. I really hopes she stays down there. Haha. She might decide to 'swim' back up again.

She weights around 2.2kg now. No wonder I feel harder stepping out of bed and getting out of a chair/sofa now. But I still walk very fast. Baby kicks me more. I can feel her more too. Tiny little thuds here and there. No elbow sticking out yet. But sometimes I feel her pushing on my bladder.

Went for J card day in BBT this week. Got some stuff for baby. Not as much as I had planned. They didn't have much variety there. But pretty cheap la after 30% discount. Missed out to get the mosquito net. There were so many people there but we got there early. So it was quite ok shopping. First time for hubby.

I really don't believe that it is only one and a half months more. So near yet so far.

Early morning!

2009-05-16T15:56:00.000-07:00

It just turned 7am and the sun is rising now.

I couldn't sleep ever since going to the loo at 6am. Was tossing and turning around in bed. So many things going through my mind. The sound of the air-conditioner whirring was keeping me awake too.

The feeling of boredom. The feeling of depression. The feeling of anxiousness. All rolled into one.

I guess the feeling of boredom is the most la. Probably about 90%? Dunno why. The only feeling of enlightenment that I get is when I spend money. Even that is short-lived. And also when I look at my little boy and seeing his silly antics. Even that is is also short-lived after he starts to annoy me or get me angry.

I look forward to my new life as a mother of two. But also I also realize that it would be a completely ball game than what I have now. So it is like I am trying to juggle with what I am enjoying with life right now as much as possible before the new chapter starts. But the problem is the life that I have right now is boring me already. And in a way, I can't wait for the new chapter to start soon. Am I making much sense? Probably not.

When I go shopping, the shops bore me. I know exactly where are the things and they are the same things at the same place. When I go to the zoo, I still remember the animals as they were 2 years ago when I was there. Yawn! When I go to work, I see the same customers and dispense to them the same medications and we talk about the same things. Yawn! When I eat at my favourite restaurants, I will order the same items on the menu as when I ate there countless times before. Yawn! When I watch Astro, I will flip to the same programs as I watched the day before.

I think Ryan is also bored. He plays with his cars morning, afternoon and night. But he doesn't complain. I asked him whether he finds it fun, he agreed with me. Just spend RM70 on books for him yesterday... just 2 books. One encyclopedia and a phonics book. I gave him a Matchbox car set that I bought a few months ago at a warehouse sale yesterday. That excited him... for awhile.

Today is Sunday. Even planning what to do today is keeping my mind busy. What to eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner? Oh yah, even eating bores me. 'Sian'. Always eat the same stuff for meals.

I really sound like an old woman.

Baby @ 30 weeks

2009-04-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

Went to see Dr. Lim for a bi-weekly appointment yesterday.

He said baby is still in a sitting position. Oh no... baby... time is running out for you to turn downwards. If you wait longer, you are getting bigger! (My weight is now 55.5kg)

Heart rate is 160++ bpm and weight is 1.6++ kg.

Doc says everything is developing fine.

I feel happy to hear that. Only thing is I feel baby is not very active and not kicking me much. The doc gave a very straight to the point answer... if baby was not active from the beginning, there is nothing to be of concern. If baby was active in the beginning and NOW the baby is not, then there is something to be worried. OK, doc... I think you are very right!!!

Other than that,
It is getting more difficult to sleep now. Don't lie much flat on my back... so have to lie side ways which is rather uncomfortable especially when the bed is hard.

The weather is still hot as a desert. Today was the worst kind of heat EVER!

Finally bought my Nutella spread coz i had the craving. Now that i have it, I find it too sweet!

Good night, baby. Good night, Ryan! Good night, hubby!

(Today is the anniversary when my hubby and I first met in Seremban over a makan session with friends in 2001. I normally don't keep track of the dates... even my wedding anniversary I normally forget. Anyway, hubs came home with a stalk of lily. I was surprised. It was a nice gesture for him to take the trouble. But I told him for the price of the flower, a dinner treat would be more worth it. But that was before I knew what was the reason he bought the flower for.)

Lazy day!

2009-04-23T19:27:00.000-07:00

Today i feel lazy.

Totally lazy! My entire head is in a blur right now. Also abit moody. Pregnancy blues i guess.

I should be glad that its FRIDAY! What's the diff? I am working tomorrow. For me, the days don't matter. I only dislike working on a Monday.

Have so many plans in my head about what to do today. Go to Jusco. Cook noodles for lunch for Ryan and I. Want to make potato curry puff. Want to make raisin butter cupcakes. Want to surf the net. Want to blog.

That is the problem. I plan so much but at the end, I probably won't execute any of those plans.

I will probably use all my energy screaming at Ryan for misbehaving himself. I do find it that if you remain calm with the naughty toddler, things are easier to be achieved!

(Baby and I weight 54.5kg now)

(I can't believe that American Idol is down to its Final 6 already!!! How time flies!!!)

Hot! Hot! Hot!

2009-04-20T08:21:00.001-07:00

Wow.. i cannot describe the intensity of the sun for the past few days!
Never seen such a roaring angry sun. Why so blazing hot, Mr Sun?
My son can't go out to the playground or even take his evening walks now.
We have to switch on the air-conditioner for a longer period. There goes our electricity bill!
Hubby and I contemplating to get an air-cond for the downstairs living room. But very very expensive. Almost RM2500++ with inverter.
There goes a nice cool living room to watch tv. Too many expenses already plus for the months to come.
Even the air-cond in my room is not cold anymore with this scorching heat.

Hope rain will visit us soon....

The attack of the cockroaches!

2009-04-15T08:59:00.000-07:00

For the past 2 months or so, I have noticed these tiny little cockroaches in my kitchen.
I ABSOLUTELY loathe cockroaches. They are my no.1 enemy!!! They only come out at night after we all switch off the lights. So when I go to the kitchen at night, I will normally see one or two on the floor or on the kitchen counter. BAM! I will try to hit them. But lately, I have noticed more and they have gotten bigger! Horror! Horror!

So, sent hubby out immediately the next day to get the round discs that contain cockroach poison.
We put them all over the kitchen on Saturday. Let's see how the progress is. Just saw one big one yesterday night!

Sitting position @ 28 weeks

2009-04-15T08:36:00.001-07:00

Had a check up yesterday.

I was scheduled for a GTT since i have family history of diabetes. It was quite a torture. I don't remember it being like this when I was pregnant with Ryan. I had to drink this solution which was ultra sweet. Within minutes, I feel giddy. I quickly bought my newspaper and walked back to the lab to sit down. Took my urine and blood sample every hour until the 2nd hour. So I was basically clock watching for the whole 2 hours. The lab assistants kept on asking me whether i wanted to vomit. They shouldn't have asked me so many times. That made me feel like it more. The only thing that kept me focused was having my breakfast after the 2 hours was up!

When I went to see Dr. Lim, he scanned the baby and said that the baby was in a sitting position. That means it is at a breech position @ 28 weeks. He assured me that there is still time for the baby to turn. The baby can turn until maybe 36 weeks. So, I am urging you baby to make a 180 degrees turn soon, ok? Mummy would like to deliver you naturally.

I was actually rather worried with what the doc told me. But I would leave it to God if he wants me to delivery baby vaginally or thru C-sec. Whatever way as long as the baby is safe.

My tummy suddenly looks so big now.
All my clothes are very tight now and only recycle a few most of the time.
I want baby to be more active so I can feel her kicks and thuds. Now its still flutters with occasional kicks.

Baby, 10 more weeks... I cannot wait. But still have alot of work to do to prepare for your arrival. Need a baby cot and get you more baby clothes. Your kor kor Ryan's clothes are all out of shape and yellow already.Need to get an air-cond for the baby room and a heater for the guestroom toilet.

The weeks and days will surely pass very quickly from now.

My thoughts...

2009-03-31T10:16:00.000-07:00

It is 1.15am now . Been reading about my regular blogger Mummies and their kids. Haven't been blog hopping for awhile now already. Interesting.

Humid and hot.

Sweating. My back feels clammy.

Decided to write something before going to bed.

Need to go to the loo. Soon.

Ever since being pregnant, my bladder needs to be emptied so frequently. Eventhough i don't drink a lot of water.

Can't really feel the baby kicking yet. There are ripples and little thuds sometimes. I cant remember when we actually start to feel the baby's elbow poking or when the baby is turning??? Perhaps when the baby gets bigger. Now at almost 7 months, I suppose still has room to move around.

Tomorrow is April's Fool day. Actually today is already the 1st. Time flies so quickly.
Hubby came back late today. Was worried for Ryan that he would get bored as I had to cook dinner from 6.30pm - 7.30pm. Wanted to take him out to ride his bicycle... but he refused.
Aiyah! That boy sure is not sporty or atheletic. Kind of worried. Don't want him to be just a bookworm.

I ate a chocolate today. Pregnant can eat ah? In moderation okay rite?

Too hot. Can't bear it already. Need to go to the air-cond room now.

Good night.

My Tummy

2009-03-26T08:27:00.000-07:00

This is how i look at 5 months pregnant.

Looks pretty small, yah? Everyone from my family to my customers at the pharmacy to the makcik at the nasi campur stall exclaims that my stomach is small. Some say I don't look pregnant at all!

But from the scans, the baby is growing according to the months when measured.

Now, at 6 months, I feel it is very round and protruding now. I am tired of my old pregnant clothes and want to get some more. Then again,I will only be wearing them for another 3 months more only.

My diet has been very bad the past few weeks. I ate ham! I know I shouldn't but cannot tahan already. Just a few slices! Bad Mummy!

My Birthday Boy

2009-03-13T10:13:00.001-07:00

Beginner in Baking

2009-03-05T07:55:00.001-08:00

Since December, I got a new Elba electric oven. It is about 36L i think. Didn't want one that was too small or too big. Just a basic one that could roast, grill and bake.

What have I cooked/baked with that oven so far?

First attempt ever in baking...Chocolate chip cookies. I got the recipe from the internet. I wanted something simple and didn't require too many complicated ingredients.
Outcome: Eeerr, it did smell abit burn and brown. And sweet too. But hubby said OK. As long as it is edible. Gave some to my colleagues too. Their feedback was it was too sweet too.

One month later, I wanted to try cupcakes. So I made just a simple butter cupcake recipe where I improvised and added raisins. Ryan loves raisins!

It was rather exhilirating putting the ingredients together and mixing them in the bowl.
Fun to see the cupcakes starting to rise too.

The finished product...

I know. They look 'small' and 'oily'. Actually, they were. I don't know why they were so oily. I didn't add much butter. Why they didn't feel the whole paper cup and rise to the top... I didn't know how much these cupcakes would rise...so I only filled them half way. Beginner!

Last week, I had craving for marble chocolate cupcake.

I must admit that I didn't follow the recipe closely. And had a few blunders along the way. So, the cupcake was a disaster. It looked like a volcano erupting and the chocolate at the outside started to crack. But they tasted rather nice actually.

What shall be my next project?

Valentine's present

2009-03-05T07:47:00.001-08:00

Haha. Hubby finally gave me a Valentine's Day gift after like... 6 years of marriage!

Miracles do happen!!!

It has been an unsaid agreement that we will not celebrate V day as it is rather commercialized and everything is marked up on that day.

Surprise! Surprise! After having our Valentine Dinner ala Bak Kut Teh at our regular place in Subang Jaya ( with Ryan), we had ice cream at McD. I do enjoy all these simple indulgence. I had craving for Choco top ice-cream from McD's for the longest time. It was sheer pleasure just sitting there and sharing my ice-cream with Ryan and hubby had one to himself. Ryan needs to learn how to lick by the way. The way he licks is hilarious!

Anyway, went back home ... and hubby gives me this...

He said he got it the day before. Honestly, I didn't expect him to do anything at all. Well, it's the simple gestures that means the most.

Food Cravings!!!

2009-02-19T07:34:00.000-08:00

Just want to jot down the food that I have been consuming during this pregnancy.

The food that I crave is rather different than when I was pregnant with Ryan. During the first pregnancy, I was practically eating Indian food throughout my first trimester. There was an Indian restaurant behind where I worked last time. So, I ate my lunch there almost everyday. I craved for their fried chicken together with poppadums and resam. Oh yummy! I just remembered that I totally hated oyster sauce and anything chinese.

For this second pregnancy, I still don't really like chinese food. The thought and the smell of the oil used in the chinese food especially those 'tai-chou' cooking really makes me sick. But take me to a nice chinese restaurant or those serving dim sum... oh yummy!

What have I been eating during this pregnancy???

- Junk food. I eat hamburgers be it McD or A&W almost once in 2 weeks. But i eat mostly the chicken or fist burgers. More healthy right? But don't worry. I steer clear from the carbonated drinks. Just had a sip so far throughout this 5 months. Couldn't tahan.

- I seem to be having an extra craving for chocolates. Also limit myself. Maybe just a small chunk every few days.

- I make it a point to eat fruits everyday. Well, almost! I stock the house with oranges, apples or papaya regularly. Also good for the bowels.

- Occasionally I want to eat Indian food like tosei and roti canai with dhal. A must! I will ta-pau from the mamak behind my pharmacy for tea whenever I work. I yearn for Malay food once in a while.

- The past few weeks I have this great craving for Nasi Lemak. But I try to limit to once in 2 weeks. Not sure the sotong that they use is actually good coz I am sure it is treated with some kind of chemicals.

- My breakfast consists of 1-2 slices of bread and a bowl of cereal/ muesli. If i am hardworking, I will throw in a cup of yoghurt which I am not really fond of. I will normally put jam and peanut butter, kaya or marmite on my bread. And a cup of Milo since coffee is off limits!!!

- I drink just plain water and fruit juices everyday. During my morning sickness period, I couldn't stand the taste of plain water. So I drank Ribena everyday for the first 2 months. Now, I don't even want to touch the Ribena.

It is always the case when it is not the first pregnancy. First time Mummies are normally MORE careful with their diet and follow the guidelines more closely. Now with my second baby, I don't follow the guidelines at all although I stay away from those really forbidden food. Food with preservatives like fish balls or processed food like sausages are also a no no to me. Only eat them in utter limitation.

I know I should be drinking more soymilk, yoghurt and cheeses that will give me more protein and calcium. Fish is also very low in my diet. Those are food that I should be consuming more.

Baby @ 5 months

2009-02-16T07:40:00.000-08:00

I can't believe I am already in the middle of my 2nd trimester. It is true. Time really speeds up during this trimester. In the 1st trimester, I was practically counting the days and weeks and wished that I would get through the quesy period fast.

Had an appointment with the gynae Dr. Lim last week. It was a scheduled detailed scan. Hubby and I was pretty excited and nervous. After doing the blood test during the last visit, doc said that I had low risk of Down's syndrome for the baby and the blood test that I did was negative for certain criterias that he was checking. Hurray! The scan took about 10 minutes. Ryan was in the room too. He was getting restless while Papa was trying to hold him back. Everything looked fine and Dr. Lim said the baby is developing well. A huge burden was lifted off my shoulders.

Weigt now= 50kg

Another worry that set us back last week was about the confinement lady. We procrastinated in asking my last confinement lady that took care of Ryan last time...so when I saw her last weekend, it was too late. She said she was already booked! I was very disappointed and suddenly worried whether we could get a reliable pui-yit so last minute. We called so many contacts but all were either booked or no longer working anymore. Thank goodness after a few days of searching, we found one from Seremban who used to take care of my brother-in-law's children.

I can feel the baby kick now. Or maybe more like moving as baby is getting bigger. I should have taken measurements of my tummy over the months. I look more pregnant now. I was getting remarks last time like " Ah.. can't see that you are pregnant!" or " Your stomach is so small!"
After the 3 months, I felt very very energetic and was in the mood of cleaning the house and keeping it spic and span. Now, that hardworking streak is slowly dying down now. This week, I feel slightly more lazy. But still energetic. The house is getting messy again. More lecture from hubby.

Ryan likes to say "Hello,baby!" to my stomach. It is so cute. He will be waving to my stomach while saying that.

Update on my pregnancy

2009-01-13T06:09:00.000-08:00

Appointment for baby in 2 days time. Excited. But probably too early to see the sex of the baby. This is the 4th month appointment.

How do I feel now?

- Stomach much bigger now. I can't wear almost all my old clothes now. The pants and shorts. I had to buy a new pants from Seed Maternity and a soft three quarter pants from 9 Months. For the tops, there are a lot of baby doll clothes from normal clothes shops which are much nicer than the tops found in the maternity clothes shops.

- My morning sickness vanished during my 2nd to 3rd month of pregnany. Now my appetite is back to normal. Have not increased yet though. Weight is increasing very slowly. Last month on the 17th of Dec at the doc appointment, my weight was 49.5kg. I still look skinny.

- Feel more tired easily. And I get breathless after doing some light housework like sweeping/mopping the floor. Sometimes the breathlessness can get quite bad. But gets better after drinking some water.

- Can't stand too long. I get cramp from my left buttocks down to my left thigh. Now every night hubby have to massage my leg before we go to sleep.

Other than all the above, I feel good. Ryan keeps on telling me "Inside Mummy stomach got baby!" He likes to jump on me and want to jump on my stomach. I have to keep on telling him to stay away.

The maid that came and left

2009-01-13T05:43:00.000-08:00

We were asked whether we would like to have a maid by my sister in law a week ago. It was her MIL's maid but things were not going so well between the MIL and the maid. Apparently the maid was ok and hardworking.

We were only planning to get a maid when the baby arrives. But since this maid was recommended by my SIL and we had a chance to let her work with us for one week, we thought "Why not give it a try first?"

So we went down to Seremban last weekend to take her home. Her name was Ati. I thought she looked pleasant.

Hubby and I was half nervous and excited having a maid.Most importantly was that she had to be good with Ryan and not seem to have an attitude. During the first day at home, I felt a bit lost not knowing how to delegate work to Ati. I was so used doing work myself and now having someone to do the work for you was strange. It took some getting used to.

Looking after her welfare was something I had to get used to. Her food, her basic needs, whether she was getting enough sleep...
First day, I took her to Jusco to buy Cintan Instant Noodles and shampoo. It was in a way fun too taking care of some else.

After a few days, I got used to having her around. It was nice having the floors squeeky clean and sparkling. The kitchen was neat and clean and the windows dust free. She was pretty capable in the kitchen too. She helped me cook the meals and prepare the ingredients.

But on the 3rd day, she told me she heard a voice like a child voice calling her name in the middle of the night. That really freaked me out. I was more worried about her mental stability. And how it progress over the months. Hubby was also freaked out. So we decided to send her back.

I was really disturbed with the decision as she was a good worker. Did we over-react? Were we acting too hasty? After much thought and advice from other people, I decided that I wanted her to stay. Hubby also agreed with my decision.

I thought everything was going smoothly and that we would keep Ati. Then on Saturday, I got a call from my hubby at work and he said that we had to send the maid back. Apparently, the agency's terms were really unreasonable and it seemed like they were cheating us. We were not entitled for the probation period for this maid and the agency was deducting 3 months from the 2 year contract if we were to employ her.

To cut the long story short, the agent came on Sunday morning to take Ati back. I was really distraught and cried myself to sleep the night before and also in the middle of the night. I felt bad and guilty to let her go the way she did. She did not know we were sending her back until the very moment when the agent came that day.

It has been 2 days since she was sent back. But the guilt has been 'eating' me eversince. I do miss her too. She was pleasant and sweet. But majority of people have advised me that maids always seem hardworking and obedient in the beginning but after working for sometime, the trouble normally starts.

I guess I am not experienced in having a maid. And I get emotional and attached very quickly. Maybe it is a sign that I am not ready to have a maid yet. We still need to make the decision quick before the baby arrives in July as it takes about 4-5 months to apply for a maid.

It's 2009!

2008-12-31T23:52:00.000-08:00

So what does one feel on the first day of the NEW YEAR?

Anti-climax.

It took 365 days to get through 2008 and now I have to start all over again. On a clean slate.

My cup is empty again.

I feel dry and flat. Will have to rebuild my blocks again...

But then again, the new year is just like any other day. Just don't look at the date!

I guess this year will be filled with lots of uncertainties and also surprises and lots more stressful days! Well, with the baby coming and due in July, there is only 7 months to prepare. Doesn't sound like a lot of time actually. January will surely fly very fast as CNY is just round the corner. Just as how fast Christmas had come and gone...just like that!

(Gee!... my lunch has made me extremely thirsty! Made my own tortilla roll with teriyaki chicken. Must be the chicken. Hubby and Ryan went out with his Ta koo koo and family to Midvalley since morning.)

Economy being so unstable... I have to be very careful in my expenses. My part-time salary is enough to get by...for Ryan's daily necessities. So, have to start saving more for the baby too.
How to save, leh? I seem to be going shopping almost every day since Christmas. But don't normally buy much.

My hopes for this year is... to be a patient individual in any situation I may encounter. To love my son and husband unconditionally and to be with my family as often as I can.

Just have to write here...
Yesterday's New Year's Eve programs on TV was the worst EVER... ! Never seen such bad line up of shows! What are the programmers doing? Are the TV stations also trying to cut budget by getting really lousy shows or airing 'Chinese' singaporean dramas on the eve of such a big occasion? Bad. Disappointing. Dampened my mood to stay up till midnight. Only TV8 aired something special. But even their live New Year Quickie Special was such a let down. Just got a bunch of college kids to liven up the studio celebrations. Boring! Can't believe NTV7 didn't even air anything special. And they call it 'the feel good channel!'

Sleepless Nights!

2008-12-18T08:21:00.000-08:00

Since getting pregnant, my bladder have been working overtime. Round the clock but especially more hardworking during the night time.

Gosh... I get up like on an average of 4 times every night. Even though my water consumption is reduced after 8pm, I still have the same output almost every night. Getting up is not so bad... it is more the going back to sleep after that. Normally, after the 3rd time, I would be having difficulty falling asleep after that. My mind would be working and thinking of things... from Christmas, to customers at the pharmacy to some of the blogger children and Mummies. Yeah... I am crazy! Ryan and hubby's snoring keep me company for 2 hours before I fall back to sleep again!

Sleepless nights make Mummy exhausted the next morning.

3rd Visit to Gynae

2008-12-18T08:00:00.000-08:00

Today I had my 3 rd follow up with Dr. Lim. He was going on a long Christmas break for 2 weeks...so everyone had a mad rush to see him. Long wait and he had 2 operations lined up when I got there. I drove like a crazy woman to get to the hospital as early as I could...but still couldn't make it for a good queue number. Anyway, once I heard that he was in a middle of an op, I decided to leave and come back later.

Quickly made a dash to Carrefour and Mydin. Had one and half hours before I had to rush to fetch Ryan from school at noon. So tried to do as much of my Christmas grocery shopping before the weekend. ( BTW, my in laws and the whole gang will be coming this Sunday for a Christmas lunch here... and I am really nervous and stressed already about the Christmas menu on that day!- anyway that is another post.)

Picked up Ryan from school. He was so chatty and happy to see me. He was almost the last kid to be fetched. He was so cute... the teacher somehow slapped so much powder on his face. So his face was all smothered with powder. We went to McDonalds for lunch. I had not enough time to cook his lunch. On top of that, I was totally knacked from all the rushing around. Ryan and I shared a Mc chicken meal and nuggets. He was such a happy kid chomping down his fries and dipping them in the tomato ketchup. It has been more than a month since he had those oily treats! The boy was surprisingly well-behaved throughout the entire meal there. Thank goodness! I don't think I would have enough energy to deal with him at that time.

We arrived at Dr. Lim's clinic at 3.30pm. I was rather worried that it had way past Ryan's afternoon siesta... so I knew that he could just burst into tantrums any moment. Thankfully I didn't have to wait long.

The appointment...
Dr. Lim as usual extended his hand whenever a patient enters the room. He looked tired. Ryan stood next to me while the doc took my pressure and did his usual checks. Then he took the ultrasound of my tummy to have a look at the baby. First 5 mins...he was scanning around. The baby looked happy.. could see the hands moving. Size was good. Development was according to the weeks... now is 11 weeks 5 days.

After that, the doc looked serious.. and asked me whether I had bled during this pregnancy. I answered "no". He noticed some bleeding accumulating at the membrane wall of the placenta. My mind just went blank after that and my heart just sank. "Oh no...why complications?" I thought to myself. I asked some questions that showed my anxiousness. But the doc was really reassuring and said that it is common and it should be reabsorbed over time. If I do get any bleeding, just go and get the baby checked again. I just felt like something heavy sitting on my shoulders. Although I rejoiced to see the baby, hearing that there was some thing going on inside me... made me so unsettled.

Anyway, I went home and checked the internet about this. I arrived at this condition which the doc failed to inform me... it is called subchorionic haematoma. Apparently many women in their first trimester experience this... and the seriousness depends on how serious the clot is. Dr. Lim didn't believe in giving any medications... whereas some doctors use hormone pills to settle it. I guess more rest and less movement would help. I kept on asking myself what may I have done to bring about this... was it something I did... did I walk too much, or walk too fast or take too much supplements... any overdose in iron in my diet... etc. But apparently, the cause of SCH is unknown.

OK...I guess i just have to take it easy. I can't wait for the 4 weeks to pass as fast as possible so I can view the baby again and hope the bleeding would be gone!

I consumed Medicine!!!

2008-11-28T22:23:00.001-08:00

Oh no... I gave in... I had to take some form of medicine...

My cough was 'torturing' me...after 6 days...still not getting better.

So I took Dextromethorphan Syrup ( Tussidex )...with much much hesitation. Even Hubby got irritated with me.

"Sorry little baby... I know that small minute amount would not affect you. Mummy had no choice. "

I was really controlling myself to not take a single form of medication while expecting. But I guess I have to be realistic and know my limitations.

Glad to say that my morning sickness has reduced. Don't feel so nauseous now. But still don't like eating chinese food...especially chap fun type.

Christmas Shopping

2008-11-20T01:34:00.000-08:00

Oh... how i miss shopping! First time I have not gone shopping for such a long time.

Miss places like Ikano and One Utama. Can't wait to see the Christmas decorations. Probably up by now.

Really want to start my christmas shopping soon. But can't find the energy to do so.

Already planning in my head what is on my christmas list...My dad, Ryan, my sisters, their children, Evon and of course my hubby. And also my staff at the place where I work.

Best part of presents is the wrapping and putting it under the tree. Will probably be putting my tree up by the end of next week. I have a 4 feet christmas tree that I bought 5 years ago. Still handy and clean. See budget.. may want to get more ornaments. So bored of my old ones.

Bloated!

2008-11-16T23:46:00.000-08:00

I think if you were to throw me into the middle of the ocean, I will end up floating!

I feel bloated all the time now. And that leads to the nauseous feeling that I am getting almost the entire day. I seem to be stuffing myself with food whenever I feel ok due to the fear of getting gastric. After that in which i just feel 'full'!!! 'Round'!!! Like a blimp.

I don't know how i got through the last week. It was horrible! Without medication, my cold took forever to go away. I was blowing my nose the whole day with balls of tissue paper everywhere.

Hhmm..suddenly i smell 'chocolate cake'!!! This pregnancy cravings is really driving me crazy! Yesterday when I was in Seremban, I suddenly felt that I had to eat 'Curly Fries'. I woke up from my afternoon nap and yelled to my hubby..."I want curly fries!!!"... and we drove 10 mins to the nearest A&W to satisfy my craving! I gobbled the whole thing in 10 mins too!!!
When I really don't have the appetite for the food, it just makes me 'sick' just thinking of it. But if I yearn for it...my appetite level will shoot up a notch! A few days ago it was fried sotong craving. I don't remember having such bad food cravings when I was expecting Ryan. I know I just had to eat Indian food during the first trimester coz chinese food made me sick!

Oh yes... so since I can't stand my own cooking, we started catering one week ago. Got the number of a sign hanging by the road. So desperate, huh?

1st day : Hhmmm.. i thought not bad.... gave me appetite and some more the serving was not enough. Things looked good.
2nd day : Still ok... abit too much black sauce... so i didnt have much appetite.
3rd day : Shocker!!! Hubby found a 'foreign' ingredient fried together with the Nam-Yee Chicken.

That threw me 1o feet away from the hygiene factor! I suddenly felt sick. And whenever I smell the caterer food now, I feel nauseaous! Oh no... what to do now? We paid for the whole month already!!!

Can't stand drinkng water too. Very bad la. Hope I don't get dehydated. Only drink Ribena. Even that is making me feel abit weird now.

Everyday I just drag my feet to get through this 'eating headache'!!!

Sick!!!

2008-11-08T01:40:00.000-08:00

Oh I wish I could find a rock and hide underneath it!

Coping now with morning sickness, a terrible head cold and cough. All rolled at once!

The hard thing is not being able to take any medication whatsoever. My nose is leaking like a faulty tap and half blocked most of the time. I feel quesy and feel like throwing up now.

It is my 3 rd day now. Have to toughen up and tahan till the storm has moved on.

Totally no appetite.The morning sickness is up and down. Some times in the morning, sometimes in the night time. Has already developed to gastric now. Had craving for hot spicy food a few days ago before I felt sick. Now when I look at chinese food, epecially with oyster sauce and dark soya sauce...my tummy gives a somersault. Feel like eating sushi and soft shell crab now... that is the only food that would give me appetite and relief me from this terrible cold!

Been sleeping in separate rooms from Ryan and hubby for 2 days already.

Please get well soon, Mummy!

I saw a black seed!

2008-11-04T06:00:00.000-08:00

Boy is it hard to see a gynae nowadays! They are in such great demand! Next time must ask Ryan to study hard to be a gynae! Anyway, 2nd attempt to see Dr.Lim today. Yesterday i couldn't wait... so i had to cabut to fetch Ryan. Today, I went super early after dropping Ryan at nursery and went to wait there. I was hoping the wait wouldn't take longer than 2 hours.

Thank God I was No.4...although I thought my number was 7! Maybe the lady at the desk helped me coz I was making so much noise that I had to leave by a certain time.

Why do I need to see the gynae?

In my last post, I mentioned a happy joyous news... so I guess it is obvious, right?

I want to use this blog to journal my feelings and events of this wonderful journey that I am about to embark.

Anyway, about the doc... first time seeing him. I was pretty apprehensive in seeing him as getting a gynae that you like and feel comfortable is very essential! It was funny... first thing he did when I went into his office... he shook my hands! Didn't expect that! Anyway, he was very professional and I definitely feel comfortable with him.

Next appointment is in 3 weeks time.

Joy to the World

2008-11-02T01:39:00.000-07:00

On 31st October 2008, I had obtained some really really happy news...! Won't say what it is yet... but it makes me beaming and warm.

A lot of planning and preparation to come...

So stuffed!

2008-10-15T08:37:00.000-07:00

I overate. Again.

What did i have for dinner?

After coming home from work about 9.30pm, I decided to whip something quick and simple.

Spiral pasta with tuna, edamame and tomatoes.

And a sprinkling of nori strips.

Elch! Sounds so appetising, right? But i finished the whole bowl.

That is why i am bloated now.

So tired of outside food at the moment. Even this will make me happy!!!

Miss the 80's!

2008-10-11T00:20:00.001-07:00

I have been feeling really nostalgic lately.

My childhood memories and all toys and cartoon characters that i used to play/see on TV.

When i was young, my mother would really spoil us with anything that was cute. She loved those things herself and would buy for us when she goes shopping. She was a child at heart.
So all her interests were somehow rubbed off on me and my sisters.

We grew up with loving stickers collecting. She would buy those Sticker Magazines which featured all the american brands. Mello Smello, BJ, Lisa Frank, Mrs.Grossman, Sandylion, Toots, Hambly... oh i miss them.

What else that represents growing up in the 80's???

- Care Bears (I did have a plush toy... can't recall what happened to it!)...remember the 'care bear stare'?

- Rainbow Brite ( I also had the doll... shud have kept it...it would cost alot now!)

- Smurfs ( I remember watching the cartoon in the evening on TV3)

- Fraggle rock

- Voltron

We also collected alot of Sanrio stuff... from the stationery to the stickers. There was shop in Asia Jaya that was called 'Gift Lane' which had lovely Sanrio merchandise. I still love 'My Melody' and 'Little Twin Stars'. Have tried looking up all those vintage sanrio merchandise on Ebay but they really cost a bomb now!

I really wished i treasured those items that I had in my childhood more last time.