Good day

After a few tiring days in a row... seems like today is turning 'not-so-bad' so far. (Ahem! Better not speak too soon, huh?)

Well, if I can be sitting at the computer at 3.00pm in the afternoon and both the kids are sleeping, I guess I will deem it as 'okay' day.

What's the difference?

I put Allyson to sleep upstairs in her cot. Whenever she napped today, I quickly put her in her room upstairs. So I can do all the house chores downstairs. When Ryan came back from school, I quickly put her in her room too. Luckily she nodded off in the car. So I could cook our lunch and feed the boy. Then, I quickly bathe the boy. Noticed that I wrote a lot of 'quickly'. Well, I guess everything I do has to be really fast and noiseless. Don't want to wake up the 'princess'!

Anyhow, she will wake up soon for her feed.

Note: Allyson has been sleeping through the night since last week. Except for a few days in between. The difficult part is getting her to sleep. She is very sensitive and every time her head touches the pillow, she wakes up. Two nights ago, it took me 3 hours to get her to sleep. After all the rocking and singing that didn't work, she ended up nodding off on her own while I was checking her diapers!!!

Bye Bye Breast Milk

I am about to surrender...put out the white flag.

My breastmilk is almost down to nil now. I know it is my fault.

I only express twice a day now... can't help it. Really can't find the time to sit down and pump. I am like squeezing every last drop I can get right now. I get only 1.5oz now each time. Some times when I am really tired and stressed, I get 1 oz only. So pathetic. I really find some satisfaction knowing that Allyson is getting some form of natural nutrition from me. Even by drinking such little amount.

Sorry, Allyson!

First Indulgence after Green Light

So what was the first thing I went for after the one-month confinement?




Yep... I finally got my coffee fix after 9 months of abstaining from it!

Did it taste great?






Actually, nope! It didn't give my any 'rasa' ! I was drinking as if it was like water. But now, I am back to drinking it every morning. Must have one cup. Don't dare go more than one cup.. in case it may keep Allyson awake!

Zombie!

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I am a walking zombie!

Well, welcome to motherhood all over again!!!

Haha! Whenever I am kept awake by Allyson in the wee hours of the morning, I think of the other mothers in my position right at that moment. Rocking the wide-eyed baby to sleep... getting her to relax for the past one hour... quietly putting her in her crib... and 5 seconds later... her eyes opens!!! And she CRIES!!!

I remember that was the case with Ryan too. But I think Allyson is a more fussy sleeper. But only during the night. Somehow, in the day time, she sleeps easier.

Today is Day No.6 with Allyson alone. The routine has already been established. I still get 'kan-cheong' when she doesn't burp after her feed. I still get 'kan-cheong' when she sleeps past her feeding time during the day.

Last night, I only managed to sleep at 4am. I was so exhausted coz Allyson kept on waking up after I put her in her bed. She was wailing and crying very loudly and uncontrollably at one point... I got worried! But after giving her the pacifier, she quietened down. But when the pacifier came out, she cried again! I thought it may be wind. But it seems okay now. I just attribute it to she was tired and was getting very agitated! When she woke up again at 4 something crying, I just cried to her and begged her to sleep coz I couldn't carry her anymore. I left her in the crib and stroked her forehead and she finally fell asleep! So so relieved!!!

ok.... should be getting rest now since she is napping too. Got to do some housework too. Ah.. will do it slightly later.

Look at that tomato cheeks!!!