Ever since sending Allyson to the babysitter at the beginning of this month, I have had much more time to spend with Ryan and myself. Eventhough it may be just a couple of hours. Evidently from the number of posts that I have written in this week.
If I don't work, I will send Allyson around 11 something and pick her up around 5 something. Unless I have some errands to run... then I may send her a little bit earlier. I still feel so guilty whenever I look at the babysitter's house from my house. Knowing that Allyson is just right there and I am not with her ( Babysitter's house is right opposite my house).
But I know this is the choice I have made against having a maid. And I am very much happier with this choice if compared to having a maid. So I guess some things have to be sacrificed in order for me to have a less stressful life. I tell myself it is not the quantity of time I spend with Allyson... it is the quality. So I pay someone to take care of her while I have time for the house and Ryan. If not, I am just spreading myself thin. Haha.. that is what I tell myself to feel guilt free. Am I a bad mother for thinking like this?
Today I finally had the time to collect Allyson's Mykids from Shah Alam. And then I dropped by Tesco. Was 20 minutes late fetching Ryan from school. Got home... bathe the boy and cooked our lunch (Broccoli with mushrooms and pork, scrambled eggs with tomatoes) and finally wash Allyson's clothes. I have some time to do blogging and read my book before fetching Mei Mei. (Am reading 'Remember Me?' by Sophie Kinsella now... very funny and interesting)
The day just passes so fast. With a blink of an eye... it is already evening. Hubby is going to nag me coz even now that Allyson is at the babysitter, looks like I am more lazy in cleaning the house as compared to when I was taking care of her full time. Probably coz I using my free time to blog and read now.
